Hey, I'm Arlan. I have been a member of this site since 2008, and have not had any more than a bite. Why am I still here? I dunno, I suppose I am holding onto a single thread of hope. My experience so far has told me that I am unattractive to the people I am attracted to, and I am not attracted to the people who show attraction to me. I hear time and time again from women that they shouldn't have to settle, but have been told that I need to "lower my standards, and settle for what I can get." Why the double-standard? Like an overweight, not so attractive woman who's asking to meet a thin, handsome man is an empowered woman who is not willing to settle. Then there's the chubby, not so attractive man looking for a woman who is petite and cute who is kidding himself to believe he'll get someone "out of his league". I'm sure you're getting my vibe that it's been a little difficult to find someone. My self-confidence is better than it used to be, but not by much. It would be nice for a woman to actually show up to the date that I fought my anxiety to get. Aside from being embarrassing, it's frustrating. "What am I doing wrong," I ask myself.
I am a single, chubby, cracka who lives alone in south Austin. I have lived in and around the Austin area since '99, but still haven't experienced all this city has to offer. Monday through Friday I am up at 6:30am, and in bed by 11:00pm-ish, as I work typically 7:30-5:00ish. When I get home from work, I like to make something tasty to eat, relax, and veg-out for a bit. On the weekends, however, I'm free, though I usually just stay in and lounge about the whole time. I should get out there, and I'd like to, but I'm kinda scared to go alone. I ride the bus wherever I go, and I am happy for that as I save quite a bit of money doing so. It's less stress, also, as I just get to listen to my music, read emails, play games, and/or check-out for a bit. You will find that I am a bit shy at first. It's mostly because I don't really have a filter, and like to get a feel for a person before opening up. Once I do, however, I have a tendency to ramble. Get the right topic, and I can talk for hours. I am an open book, and have no problem sharing, so you may need to remind me sometimes that it's TMI. I am also very honest, as well as sarcastic. On occasion, my teasing may come off as a little crude or rude. If that happens, I'm sorry, but I don't necessarily mean it that way. There is plenty more to say, but I don't want to write my entire story here, so just ask me something, and I will tell you the truth. I do hope to hear from you, but I understand if I don't. Good luck. Feel free to kik me .. nuttybutniceguy