Im starting this with saying I'm not looking for a booty call!!!.....
I'm a full time student at CAL working toward a long goal of obtaining my Phd. I'm not looking to rush into anything "serious" with someone, but I do want more than a once a week date and hope that a connection could lead to more. I prefer monogamy but every situation is different and as long as there's communication and honesty, I think anything can be worked out. I know what I want out of life and a partner and I'm refusing to settle for anything less. I'm tired of bullsh*t and being taken advantage of and lies too. I don't need to hear "pretty words" and what you think I want to hear. I just want someone who can be completely honest with me, no matter what the subject may be.
I believe actions show more than words and I pay attention to everything. I enjoy showing my appreciation to my significant other and when appreciation is received It makes me happier to do more. A simple "thank you" goes a long way. I don't expect much but I'd rather be alone, than with someone that does not see my worth. I am a "horrible" smoker but I do want to quit. I'm a brutally honest person and no matter how much I may want to, I won't lie to you or for you. That being said, I am also an emotional person and I often have a bad habit of "over sharing" how I feel. I'd say I'm not "broken" from my past but I admit I'm still damaged and trying to heal and there's remaining insecurities that get a little annoying, but I promise those moments are very simple to avoid and I'm not "crazy". LOL ;) I'm not clingy however, I do expect to hear from the person I'm dating at least once a day. I don't care if it's just a text to say hello or even one that just says "busy, can't talk. Thinking of you" it at least shows me that I crossed your mind.
I'm a very understanding person, just never lie to me. This is probably bad to share but, screw it; the "silent treatment" will literally drive me "stupid emotional girl crazy". No joke, I don't know what happens to the "rational" me but she gets replaced by something that I even hate, "a stupid girl". So basically a way to avoid it from happening or stop it if it starts, is just to be honest. If your mad, tell me; if you want to tell me to "**** off" than just tell me, and if you meet someone else, just be honest; don't pick a fight just for a reason to walk away. I don't really "fight" and really I don't get angry often, but I do get disappointed and upset /hurt and I like to talk things out and be completely clear so there's no room for miscommunication. Realistically, we all have certain things we need from a partner but no body is perfect. I believe when you care for someone you care for ALL of them, the good and the bad.So I guess I'm looking for someone who feels the same.... Ok that got a little "deep" sorry about that... Lol....
Anyway I also love to cook for others and have small get-together's. I'm a sucker for board games (although no one ever wants to play them). I love to dance but rarely go out. I did the club thing when I was younger now I'd rather have a cold beer in a hole in the wall dive bar. I'm not materialistic at all; name brands and money, does not impress me. Also, seeing someone on here with all their photos, without a shirt; is a turn off. Confidence is a turn on but arrogance will make the most attractive person repulsive. I do think attraction is important, I'm not shallow but I need that "spark" to be happy. I'm very serious about school so when my work is done I like to watch mindless television and just relax. I like the out doors; as long as , its not hot. I'd rather spend a week in Alaska than in Hawaii. I love camping, tent or cabin, doesn't matter to me. I want to do more fun stuff and share the experiences with someone. I usually work weekends which makes having the "fun times" with friends difficult. But if your up for week day getaways or week nights out playing pool or even paint ball I'm in. If there's anything you want to know just ask. However, if your on here to just get laid keep looking I'm not interested.
Truthfully, I'm too busy to "date" right now. The "first date" always seem to be to hard to keep... So for first date / meeting.. My only suggestion is to come see me while I'm working. A little weird and unconventional but it takes the "cat fish" worry out of it. Lol