1) I will not respond to personal email addresses immediately. Too many scammers out there. 2) You MUST be age-appropriate. 3) I am not pot-friendly. NEXT!
I’m feeling the need to re-write. It’s been too long that I have remained stagnant in my essay. And for weeks now, I’ve been feeling contemplative and reflective. But I’ve also been on the dating-site-scene for so long, on and off, that I honestly feel like I have nothing more to say. I’ve come to the point where I’m tired of hearing myself talk.
I’ve been divorced since 2005 after marriage to my high school sweetheart. And I’ve been looking for the right guy ever since. I’ve also not been looking, on and off, ever since. Needless to say, I’d rather be alone than be with the wrong person. I’ve done fine on my own. And honestly, I’ve never even felt lonely until recently. By the same token, I don’t remotely understand how people can jump from relationship to relationship, from lover to lover, from one person to anther… so darned quickly! I can’t decide if I’m stronger than most because I can walk away when I know when it’s not right, or if I’m weaker than most because I can’t bare the heartbreak of walking away so often. So, I’ve been EXTREMELY selective. And still, I’m just not finding the right guy.
So, maybe I’ll give this until the end of 2015, and then resign to being alone. I’d like a family... and I am 42. I’m coming to the point where I have to say… do it, or don’t. And if that means starting one on my own, I guess I’ll just have to put on my big-girl panties, and do it on my own. It’s never the right time. It’s not by any means my idea of an ideal solution. But if I’m faced with: do it, or don’t… I’m going to have to at least try before the opportunity is gone.
Gentlemen, I’ve read so so many, mean, insulting, degrading, awful things you’ve written. I’ve been told I’m too fat, too conceited, too insecure, too this, too that… which are all pretty laughable, really. I’ve remained positive for so long. And I’ve grown a very thick skin. But I think I’m near my breaking point. There’s nothing that makes you feel as unworthy of love as a dating site. Some of you understand one side of that coin… feeling unwanted by someone you think you deserve. The other side of that coin is feeling like a cheap piece of meat because of all the sexual propositions I’ve received with no chance or even suggestion of a relationship. What’s even more appalling is how many people think that’s perfectly alright. WHO RAISED YOU? Seriously, have some respect!
So, for now, I will continue searching for the right guy, who wants the same things I do, and who is everything I want. And I will continue being alone until I find him. It is important to me that you are as grounded as I am. Don’t get me wrong… I adore and am attracted to HUGE personalities, and I can be as goofy as they come… I do have a background in musical theatre after all… that doesn’t just go away. But I know how to be an adult, and how to be stable and responsible. I’m just looking for someone who’s come as far as I have and knows what he wants in life. Educated, employed, and I cannot stress AGE APPROPRIATE enough. He’s ready for a monogamous relationship and a family, and he’s ready to make it happen, hopefully, with me! Let’s meet sooner rather than later, shall we?
I sing, I write songs, I record music. I love musicians, but not the pot. I'm logical, rational and mathematically minded. My mind works quickly, and I see many answers to one seemingly simple question. So my next question is, what do you mean? I slip in quick one-liners. I'm educated, and self sufficient. I have an old-world upbringing by a Greek family. That directly conflicts with my independent nature and left-leaning-views... Take me or leave me. I always make an impression. All of that is who I am. And I won't apologize for it, because I rather like me. I hope you like you. Because I'll see it if you don't.