Well here I am! For the past two years I was the most content that I have ever been. I was with my soulmate. It was supposed to be for the rest of our days. However my boyfriend was killed over someone being all wigged out on drugs that we considered to be a friend. This " friend" chose to be God and took his life. Prior to this I lost our baby spontaneously. I had miscarried. Almost a month to the day of losing him the next month. For the past month I have been tryin to figure out who I am without him. I was "us" for so long ,I don't know me anymore. I was "Poppa's girl" without Poppa I have realized just how much of a nobody I was to just about everyone. He lit up a room to where I was just beside him. I guess I am saying all of this because my best friend and my everything is forever gone and I am lonely and am craving him almost aching for him. In this loss I experienced I now know I do not want to be alone and want someone to love me again. We did everything together and were inseparable the two years we spent together. It's almost too much sometimes and realizing that nobody feels like I do right now, and our friends were really just his has brought me here in search of a friend just for me. I'm not clingy but enjoy my man. I'm me at all times and want to be accepted for that. I treat others how I want to be treAted and believe that honesty at all cost is best and that trust is the basis of a foundation to grow on. Forgiveness waters any relationship and communication feeds and keeps it vibrant. The most important thing is in the end these three thing remain, faith, hope, and love, With the greatest of the three being love. Love never fails!
First off this is as real as it gets I'm not your best choice as the pick of women go prolly....lol however I'm good at being loyal... I'm good at being in a relationship and really don't know how to be dishonest and am willing to take things slow... Don't want to smother anyone considering I like time alone as well, but like time with my man just as much.... I'm definitely not perfect and feel as tho you have to give a person room to make mistakes in life as well as be just as willing to forgive those mistakes....I also feel like loving someone is not a chore, and accepting faults is part of loving someone and if you can promote positive changes you will without even trying.... Trying to change a person only causes problems and is unfair..... Habits are hard to break so either you have patience or not with w person and I'f your someone that does promote positive changes without trying it will be evident. Saying all this to show judging and not being able to accept a person for themselves is wasting someones time and definitely not what I want nor who I am.... At the end of the day I'm human and to know me is to know my heart and that's me so if you have time we could work.... Otherwise if you just want a dingy woman you can control and belittle keep moving....I'm more of a best friend strong willed type woman that needs the same.... I'm willing to put in the time for true love and commitment if you are. I have priorities and am in need of something positive at the moment and don't want to have anyone play with my time or emotions. Just saying. Life is meant to be enjoyed and I don't have time to do anything other than that cuz life is but a breath of eternity and I know the importance of that time
Talking, enjoying each other, and laughing! Basically, having fun doing whatever we choose, but most importantly getting to know one another on a more personal intimate level.