So... here goes, last ditch effort before I cancel this site. I've been on here for about 3 years off and on and honestly I don't spend much time here. I rarely go out and have mostly lost interest or hope in meeting the right guy. I have had some pretty awful dates and no clicks, matches or long term outcomes. Maybe it's a numbers game and my numbers are just really small. I am reluctant to meet people because it can be so disappointing. I just feel worse after rejecting someone or they reject me, either way it is emotional and disruptive. Those that I am attracted to are generally not attracted to me and vice versa.
However, I am willing to give it another try on the simplest of terms. No high hopes, no expectations, no first meeting "dates", no anxiety, pressure or physical contact. I can only think of it as two people getting to know each other through casual conversation over a cup of coffee, tea or what have you. Meeting someone is not a date. Dating would follow after a mutual, intellectual and physical attraction has been established.
Friendship....hummm. No guy I know wants to be "friends" with a woman he just met on a dating site. There is no instant "friend" chemistry here. He either wants sex, a relationship or is a scammer. True friendship takes time and memory building, there is no possibility of becoming friends if there is no attraction or time spent together, it's plain and simple. I stopped looking for "friends" on here because it does not exist. If there is no real chemistry after meeting, we move on our separate ways.
People are age ( I'm assuming you are close to mine) are surely set in their ways and probably aren't going to change or tolerate much, I know I am there. I have been married, had kids and divorced, pretty much had a full life to this point. So...this is where I'm at: No rotten teeth, sorry but I just can't handle that. No drug addicts/alcoholics, been there, done that, no thanks. No one looking for a mommy to take care of them or sugar mama, we both pull our own weight. I work full time, I'm not your maid or cook. I am somewhat disorganized but can't stand filth so you will have to clean up after yourself and sometimes after me. The TV is mine between 6 and 9 PM.
I have recently become vegan and would love to meet another vegan, this means I use no animal products and wouldn't want any in my home. I believe in animal rights and cannot be with someone who hunts or goes fishing. I am also livid about GMO's in our food and buy organic whenever possible. I started a vegetarian diet several months ago mainly for health reason, I wanted to lose weight and live longer. I read "The China Study" and several books from the interviewees in the documentary "Forks over Knives" among many others. Then I watched "Earthlings". The horror! I can't even eat dairy or eggs anymore...thus I am vegan and doubt I will ever go back.
If you are still reading this ...wow! I can't believe you made it this far so I will continue: I am spiritual, please don't confuse that with religion. I don't believe that Jesus is God (unless we are all God) or that Mary had a child with God (a God that was not human). I don't believe in Heaven or Hell as an actual place other than in our own minds or within our own energies. I believe in reincarnation, positive and negative energy, sacred geometry, the flower of life, science, evolution, God like energy and science combined (Spiritscience). Spirit Guides, Angles, ghosts, other dimensions, metaphysics and yes..even aliens. My beliefs are ever changing and I am led by finding books, mostly they find me and guide me to what I must learn next.
Ok..I am exhausted from writing this. It is real, it is true and honest. Now my rant is over, Thankfully, right? If you are even close to understanding me and want to know more, just send me a message. I will either respond or ignore you. Thanks for stopping by!