I am sorry I am negative you see,
but how can i become positive if no one ever spends two seconds on me,
I can stand here at the threash hold of amazing, and that dream is one I can only hold on to,
if I dont have a strong woman pushing me through,
I have lost myself and lack confidence,
and at timesa I feel like my life is like Shakesphere and just another tragedy,
But how can I look forward when there is no one here with me?
If you take the time sit back and take it all in you will find your ****n amazed,
although I have lived life under the stars and eyes now half glazed,
yeah sometimes I look up and I wonder about death, but that is only when I feel lost like there is nothing left,
but mostly I try and keep fighting, we never know whats next,
maybe tomorrow I will invent something new and they will send me some checks,
The sad truth is I have lost my faith and I find no one can believe in me, and I am still feeling
like Romeo in another sad Shakespearean tragedy,
ya know there was a time I thought I had wings and I could fly,
Back then never looked at the ground,
never thought I could ever die,
22, and had arms to match,
and now I feel like I lost my own game and, my words not read like chicken scratch,
everybody wanna get rich and get paid,
I have all the right tools just need one to show me the way...
I dont mean to sound like another hopeless romantic tragedy,
I know I am only the Heartofromeo and he is not me
"The saddest part about all of this is, there are amazing people hiding below the skin, and mostly we are too shallow to ever see them," Marylin Monroe
Favorite quotes, "Don't waste time today cause we are not promised tomorrow," My Nana
"Of all things, money, fame, friends, the only thing that is not replaceable is time," King Henry the VIII.
"Momma told me to be a simple kind of man,"
I am not sure who i am lately...a lot changes in the course of life. I am not even sure what I am looking for. Not looking for much, but I check this inbox most days. I work hard, I have a small business I am trying desperately to make a success, no dont mean I am rich. I feel like you have to chase dreams or else your spending time dying. I am a country boy, grew up, "down home." I try and treat everyone with respect, still say yes mam, and yes sir. Still hold doors open for people. I try and do the right thing, I am not sure of anything lately, God, love, and many other should be, 'solids,' come into question. What really is the meaning of it all...?
To be completely honest with you, it would take an amazing woman to capture my heart. I know I am a good man with a lot to offer. I feel like I deserve a genuine woman, one who is honestly looking for one real man. If your all talking to 3-4 guys or more than by all means concentrate on them and my bad. I want one woman who wants to have both our dreams come true.
(a poems I wrote)
There was a time you made me so happy, and you cast dream in my mind, now suddenly those days have passed, and even the vary memory of love is one that I cannot find. i tried to love you all the while you were running away, I tried to hold onto the dream of the future but it grew wings and flew away, Value i realize now was different for you and I, mine was placed on love and time with you, your was placed on the things money could buy, A house divided can surely never stand, now i realize we had no foundation only a house built on quick sand, I struggle and fight trying to push ahead, all the while your love weighing me down like a ton of lead. Never did i lead you astray never did I want to be involved in the games that you play, This burden the one you have made me wear, derived of shame and guilt, i am ripping off these chains and tearing down the walls that you have built, You wanna call me a hell spawn or compare me to the devil himself, a liaison; its proof positive, and the world can see where we are both from. You speak of division , just like the Dark Lord, you purposely cause pain and grief, you are the one who also steals, just like a thief, you are the one who pushes until love is gone, and yet it is you who points out everyone's wrong, if I were to go to hell then I would surely be out of place, my heart is pure, and I offered you love and you laughed in my face, I wanted to build a family just as the bible commanded, but you tore it apart with a free will and underhanded, Shame on me? No doll, I think not, shame shame on you fore its your foot that's already in hell and now your soul is getting hot, The devil destroys and divides, God loves and builds, I loved you the most and you were always hate filled.
Sometimes I wanna be somebody else, sometimes I realize I should probably ask for help, sometimes I act like I do not care at all, sometimes I like to sit and just watch the rain fall. Sometimes I am a pillar of strength with waves and ships crashing against me like a jagged wall, but sometimes I am weak and live life on a slow and steady crawl, sometimes I need no one and just want to be alone, sometimes I just don't even wanna answer my phone. Sometimes I know the right answer and just what to say, but sometimes the words can be a million miles away. Sometimes I feel like I am already a king, sometimes I wanna be flashy and wear a diamond ring. And sometimes I wanna just be ragged and comfy. Sometimes I wanna scream and bang my head against the wall, drink my self into a coma and nothing really helps at all. Sometimes I am simply not at my best, and sometimes u need to be brought back down to reality...but always I love you, and always wanna see you smile.
Sea of loneliness, (outskirts of hell)
Your confidence was tragic, i felt like a drowning man, and save me....you did not, you stood by and watched as the water crested my face, and you felt no pity or remorse as the sea of heartache and emotion claimed yet another victim, after some time I managed to crawl to shore, I emerged from the placid waters, no resemblance as I was before, for pain had touched even the recesses of my soul, it is my belief that hope, love, dignity all died within me, and I am now a lost soul stirring on the breeze, no heart beat, I am already dead, I was a cat with nine lives, and now I am on borrowed time already in the red, no confluence of thought, no influence on action, just lost and adrift. I used to be a strong man, before my self respect left, and my dignity was stripped away...and now I am lost in simple memories of what could of been, and what never happened yesterday. kill me, on my knees I beg aloud to God, but even he and his kingdom has forsaken me, I beg out in the darkness anyone take my life, give me rest and sweet serenity.
I been searching the seams between right and wrong, self discovering missions, and idly separating mind, heart, body and soul, self fulfillment and living dreams, it seems sometimes I have not far left to go, i feel like i am gaining the world, but at he cost of what I lose, the self actualizing dream might not be one i wanna live or even know, I fight shadows on the wall, plagued by eternal loneliness, I have no one left to call, down on my knees I beg God in the middle of the night, only devils seem to answer here in this witching hour, as the rot of left over loving smells wasted and tired, past memories remembered, and a rush of emotion all over again, the bridges have already been burnt and the sign is posted no crossing again, though it seems I am on the pah of righteousness, and i possess all the tools, my heart has turned black and I am drowning in the river of hopeless romantic fools.
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