I'm on a journey for self- integrity, probity, and straightforwardness.
Honesty is everything..
A lot of people will read this and think I know exactly what I want, well, I don't. Life's an amazing story ready to be written, but the best writers never know how the book unfolds until it happens.
How do you stand out in the crowd? How would you convince this special person you would complement perfectly, for the moments that it would take to get to know you? How would you even know it's them? That’s kinda why I hate filling these things out. Do I list all the negative things so you know what you're getting into, or the extensive and overpowering amount of positive, or both? Wait a tick, I think I should add, "I ROCK" somewhere in there as well. I gave up looking for "The One". I started believing people are just people. I'm hoping the powers that may be, would unravel fate and happiness in my favor. I honestly just want a friend. Not just any friend, a good friend. Someone who I trust and can trust me in return. Someone I can laugh with, and fill my mind with memories I'll keep. You know that happy memory you have of the one special someone from your past, whether it be your mom or your grandpa, yeah, it's kinda like you carry part of their soul forever as a memory. Are you worthy to share mine?
A Different Way:
I'm writing this to take a different approach to meeting people. One day my curiosity just peaked, and I browsed my competition. In doing so, I realized no one really writes who they are. Maybe it's that people wanna tell you in a chat, but this only leads to short answers without putting any real thought in it, and repetition. I'm hoping to skip all that verbal dribble of finding out who I am in a "single serving" popup box, and focus on a real relationship.
One More Try:
Like many, I've met someone on this site in the past. Things didn't go well between us and I am as much to blame as anyone. Are you the type of person that I can mess-up with and you can still love me for my faults? I also love kids, which kinda works out because I have a couple of my own. Let’s be realistic, sometimes you meet someone and after a while you realize you don’t wanna continue. It happens. It happen for the person I met. The hard part about that is, if it doesn’t work between us and we both have kids, and our kids are ripped from the others life. So now I'm a lot more cautious, because in the relationship with the kids, the kids aren’t the only people to get hurt.
Home and Work:
I've lived in many cities on the east coast, but have always considered New Hampshire my home. I have a pretty colorful past in which I blame on my rebellious side, even being that I lay claim to always having noble intentions. I am in the farthest position from judging anyone. The career choices I have made over the years reflect my matching personality, and I’m not done growing by any means. Currently, I work for UPS; not driving though, so don't expect me to do role-play in the browns’ with a package for you. I was out of work for some time for a work injury; three back surgeries and the worst pain in my life, now finally getting back. It’s a lot of red tape, dealing with the Union. I love my job; not so much the management. Sometime it can be a little stressful, but I do get a workout and normally covered in box dust when I get home. I unload and loading 18 wheelers and scanning all the boxes. If you live in the area, you might see my name on the box you just got delivered. It’s that red ink, printed next to the label.
I've said 143 to more than one person and not my family. In the words of Nicholas Cage, some people think I've been a little too cavalier in my personal life. I believe "love" is not finite, and that's not a bad thing to me. What I do know is that it's relative to the possessor and statistically speaking, couples don't disclose that fact. Now, these other people in my case, have moved on with there lives and so have I, but my point still remains firm. I'm only listing this because some cant cope with this idea. I've always been monogamous, and consider myself to be a bit of a romantic. I find delight with walks in the soft warm rain holding hands. I choose to be chivalrous as much as possible. There's nothing better than running across heavy traffic to help an old woman. Call me a daredevil; I'll pick flowers from places I'm not supposed to be, just to get that one that matches your dress.
I have an ISTJ personality, so I'm gonna tell you exactly what’s on my mind, and I kinda need you to be to the same. It's just the type of person I am. I think about things very logistically and systematically and sometime I miss what's between the lines. Now that I think about it, maybe it's just because I'm a guy. I'm very open at times. Sometimes not; sometime I hide. Those are the times I normally want you to chase me. I mean come on, you know all us guys are just big babies at heart. I'm quiet 75% of the time, but when I get loud you know it, and so will the people in China. I once went 16 days without making a sound. Try it, it's harder than it looks. I feel that honor and respect are the largest driving forces in my life. The worst thing I can think of is shaming the name my lineage gave me. In the past, I'm pretty sure this is confused with me getting a "big head", so please don’t think that.
I'm Matthew. My family calls me Mateo. I grew up as a single child with my father, but I'm really the youngest of six. I'm neighbors with the rotary, here in Alton, NH. I don't mind befriending anyone within reasonable driving distance. Yes, pen pals are cool to. I have Google+, Facebook, and Y! chat, but I don’t use them much. I speak 10 languages. If you didn't catch the play of words there, I've been in school, doing a kid’s dream, 3d game software engineering. (10 = on/off for programming) Realistically it's just a way of saying I wanted to get paid to be a gamer. Admitting it is the first step, so yes, I'm a gamer. Don’t worry; I know how to put down the controller when the time is right. More than likely, I'll be trying to get you to rock out to some songs you like on Rock Band.
I love outings over all else! The beach, putt-putt, the park, hiking a trail, or even the movies. Live shows or music are probably the better choice; Cirque Du Soleil, Stomp, you name it, I love it! The last live show I've seen was Proof, put on stage, in Pittsfield, so I'm due to go out. Are you ready?
I haven't found the road I'm looking for. Lately, I've just been putting one foot in front of the other and, sometime, tying on the blindfold I keep in my pocket. Who knows, maybe someday I'll bump into you.
P.S. 2 of the 9 bullets are completely wrong on my "Chemistry Test Results ", but they nailed my relationship needs.br
I thought it would be kinda cool to bring up headlines and profiles. You can basically sum them all up in 6 groups. Now ladies, this is purely for fun. I want you to know, you are all special and someone out there will be very lucky to have you.
1)Drama and Games and Real Men– This has got to be the most widely used words of all time. Seriously! I would have to say 2/3 of all ladies use this somewhere. It’s also the most looked down upon. Don’t worry, I’m not judging you or anything, but It’s a clever way of telling us guys you’ve had problems with dating in the high numbers, and I recommend a re-write even if it’s true.
2)The Merry Go Round– It might also be listed as “Here We Go” or “One More Try” or “Last Time”. Thoughts on this headline are similar to #1. It just seems like you’re not having any fun looking for your mate; almost like it’s a chore.
3)Prince Charming – Most guys understand that all women want one of these. I’ve heard this said different ways. Normally used like, “Mr. Right” or “Knight in Shining Armor”. In my un-professional opinion, you won’t find him in the circles you normally run in. He might be out there, but seeing this headline, you might be over looked.
4)The Adjective– Basically you describing yourself somehow, and much preferred over the aforementioned.
5)The Verb– Another one where you describe what you wanna do with your mate or a random motion. Use in the same manner as #4, and again preferred; and ladies, "live, love, laugh" is used the most for this.
6)Abstract– Anything Else and my personal favorite. It’s usually pretty wild and definitely original.
I hope you ladies don’t take offense to this, and maybe you learned something you didn’t know. I feel you should always tell us about what you want; not what you don't want. Strive to make your profile as bright and warm as your heart is. Good luck fishing!
You made it this far and still crave more? Maybe I’m a new friend, maybe I'm not. I think the “means” is what I want in life, not the end result. I update my profile daily and I always want to improve. "Not looking" makes it easier to talk about who I am, but that doesn't mean I won’t be ready someday. I love criticism even though sometimes I care not for the way it’s presented.
The fact you probably get too much mail, I'll be waiting patiently by my inbox for you to write me :)
”Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.” ~Carl Bard
"Like the yearning of pale oils on a dark canvas, the night is a therapeutic syzygy of intrinsic patterns, sewn by those who stitch the darkness into the colors that can be seen for days ahead. ..I'm in awe of how powerful he can be." ~Me
The two words my dad said to me that had the most impact in my life, "question everything".