I'll be adding more new photos this weekend.
What I have learned over all is, life is not perfect, its complicated and sometimes messy, its awe inspiring and ever changing and even wonderful, Its supposed to be, if it weren't, how would we learn, grow, become smarter, wiser. I too am imperfect, ever changing, and wiser everyday.
It takes years to become wise and some never do.
The things we go through in life, contribute to who we are, if we allow ourselves to learn. I can honestly say I know more about myself in the last two years than some ever learn. I feel that I've gained more tools in this time and a better understanding of myself.
so ok....too deep...lol
Hope you packed a lunch as I tend to put it all out there and therefore its a bit long.Sit back and get comfortable.(giggle)
2 Summers ago I was inspired by a friend to get back on a surfboard, I was feeling fearless... Loved it not sure how often I'll get that feeling, I dont care for sharks. But it was amazing. Funny how one event can inspire another. So that explains one of the photos.
Ok....moving along,,,,friends should be the ones to fill out the part about you, since they know you better than anyone, so I ask a few what 3 words described me best....
First one I've known since I was 2 she and her husband said, Intelligent, loyal, and caring but felt the need to add feisty, stubborn, and funny. So there it is. lol
The second has known me about 10 years and said.... smart (guess that goes with the intelligent above) lol, grounded, and a good friend with a big heart, awwww so sweet. I hope I am, I try to be. She also added funny and sassy so we are on a roll here can you tell.
The third said who I've known about 20 years, that I know how to use both sides of my brain LOL ( this person is an engineer and very technical, and thinks not enough females are capable of that. lol Also said I'm a romantic, and an adventurer not afraid to face the world head on.
Oh, and my friends grandmother said I'm a wise old soul with a modern groove. LOL shes about 80/85 ( I've ever asked) years old and very sweet and wise.
The me I know is.... romantic to the core, deep,, and empathetic. I feel I'm a very intuitive person who cares about those around me rather I know them or not. I'm a protective concerned person.Oh and I turned 46 not too long ago not 45, just a number, as long as youre holding your own lol Anyway I try to give the best of me at all times, though I'm not perfect. I make mistakes but I try to learn from them, as to not make the same mistake twice.But Who is perfect? Those that claim perfection aren't for me. That is more of a narcissistic personality and that's a turn off.
I'm single though I did date someone from here for quite awhile it didn't work out for different reasons.
Before that I had chose to be, single for quite a while. I wanted time to learn who I am, how I've grown, and where I stand in my life., Ive had hardships, made mistakes, had good times and made memories I've learned and I've lived and most of all I learned I love me,
But I also figured outI I enjoy being in a relationship and having someone to share and do things with.
To use more words to describe me, would be passionate, poetic at times, truthful/honest, and pampering. I miss that feeling of butterflies in your stomach when you kiss or even touch someones hand that truly moves you so deeply.
You know what I mean? when just looking into their eyes makes your heart beat faster, it makes you feel warm even when if its 30 degrees outside. I'm not sure online is the way to find that certain someone as it seems once the online dating started, everyone started thinking they can find it at anytime, anywhere. That's just not the case. You may find many people, but for me, its like a needle in a haystack, one I'm still digging through and finding that maybe I should stop trying and maybe it will find me. There just arent many men on here I find I have the mental and physical attraction to.. Its so difficult in the world today to find that combination you seek, I seek. And yes I think its ok to understand a relationship isn't always a honeymoon, but you should never, ever stop reliving the beauty of your love, never stop taking a moment to reflect an show each other you care, have fun, never forget romance. The little things are everything.
As far as looks...we all love an attractive man, well ok ,us females, lol, I like a nice face, sweet smile, somewhat in shape, lol As far as types I'm attracted to anything from a surfer, to a business man, maybe military, causal, or even a cowboy. lol I'm not bothered by tattoos as long as they are done in taste, nor are they a requirement, I'm just making it known that body art doesn't effect me as long as its art. There is a difference. I really just like a man who looks good in jeans and a nice button up or tee, laid back and comfy.
I'm old fashion in many ways, yet modern in many ways as well. I'm shy at first but find it easy to meet people or befriend people no matter their background..from the upper class to the blue collar, I base nothing on someones financial status. I seem to fit in just about anywhere.
I take care of myself I have books smarts/common sense and street smarts. I know how tro carry myself but if youre stuck up and or mean to people I wont be comfortable.
I enjoy everything, a good challenge like white water rafting, kayaking, I've been skydiving and I cant wait to Zip-line. I've surfed, wind surfed, snow skiing is a blast. I love roller coasters even if I feel scared at first, I always end up back in the line for another go. I enjoy travel be it the next town over or another country. I happen to be very creative so I enjoy painting, writing, sewing, cooking, redecorating,fashion, and the list goes on. I love music and last year I also started teaching myself french but stopped for awhile having no one to speak it with. lol I'm going to get back to it. I love to laugh, and I can laugh at myself,, I think that's important.
I despise the dating scene, so being back on here sucks. I prefer a solid happy relationship to dating. I dont mind being single in fact I used to love just having my own space. now I like having someone to do things with. Someone in my space.