Still, even now, at 36.33 years of age, I believe in saving the world. I've thought about it quite a bit, and I figure that with all the amazingness and absolute joy and awe and love and beauty that's out there, it's kind of worth saving. Not just the planet, but all of these things and beings on it, too.
So. After years of figuring out what my part to that will be, I'm still somewhere between becoming some sort of master of the universe and just being as compassionate and allowing as I can. One of those things is easier. Guess which one.
I'm still learning and still need to travel if I'm going to make an impact, so that's somewhere in my future. Right now I'm impacting one person or so at a time, doing my best to make individual worlds better. Sometimes I succeed. I was a therapist for about 8 years, so there was even some professionalism to it. Now, I work with kids in a local school. Turns out I love kids. Yeah, it was a surprise to me, too. Especially teenagers. But they are ****ing awesome, brilliant, hopeful, inspiring, and yep, definitely our future. So I do whatever I can to inspire them right back.
Oh, and then there's Running. With a capital R. I love to run. I started running when I turned 30 and it changed my life. Ask me about it. I was recently on an epic 15 mile trail run and tore a few ligaments, though. That's sort of dampened my plans for a bit. Completely soggified them, actually. Which is why I'm swimming... but it doesn't quite do it for me. Soon I hope to be back on my beautiful badass and most sexy bike Paolo, but I can't put the weight on the ankle yet for climbing hills, and what fun is a ride without hills? I live at the top of a popular climb for cyclists, so I'm very much looking forward to rebuilding my biking habits too.
I like the speed of cycling and running - the flying feeling that's all powered by just me. So very good. I tend to run solo, but riding can be social. Wanna go ride bikes?
I live in the country - I grew up on a tiny dairy farm in the midwest, and it turns out that a small farm is exactly where I want to be someday. I was in SF for several years and loved it, but I prefer the wide open spaces. I like having a garden, or being able to dig a hole in my yard and not worry someone will fall in it. I love showering outdoors and not worrying about neighbors. I like the complete darkness that comes with living on a ridgetop, where it feels like I can touch the stars.
I love my life. Sure, I experience frustrations and sadness and fear and even boredom at times (though I rarely get that), but most of my life is filled with exploration, gratitude, joy, and love. I'm an introvert, and more often than not I'd rather stay home, but I go out because I love what humans are - full of contradictions, full of potential, full of life. I only get to experience that if I come down off my moutain top.
Passion... I get excited about things and jump into them. Books, people, causes, new training regimens, cooking, Buffy... I love reading, living vicariously. I don't watch a lot of television, just what I can get on Netflix. I'm a bit true to my sign (though I don't care a whole lot about astrology, I navel gaze just enough to be intrigued by strange systems that might describe me), so sometimes that whole dreamer/head in the sand applies.
I wish I had a bigger vocabulary. Words are sexy. Intelligence is sexy. Punctuation is sexy, which is why I use a lot of oxford commas, ellipses, and parenthetical notations. Also a lot of hyphens, colons, and semi-colons. And some sentence fragments. Spelling: also sexy, when done correctly.
As of this printing, I'm looking to go relatively slow. I want a relationship built on friendship. I want my best friend, really.
In any case, I'm reaching out, stepping on some toes, stepping on my own toes, and ready for whatever you've got. Invite me. I might say yes.
We could go for an easy run. A walk on East or West Cliff. A bike ride over Granite Creek. A hike in Henry Cowell... We could meet in a bookstore and pick out books for each other. Bring snacks to a bench overlooking the Cement Ship. Mostly, I just want to be outdoors.
One thing to add: I want to smell *you*, not manufactured chemicals. I have a sensitive sniffer, so if we meet up, would you mind skipping (or go super light on) the cologne, please?