To all of you who visit my profile, I want to bequeath these words to you
Like most of you that are here, I am searching for that woman who is the one. The one (for me) who is a Christian, essentially is my best friend. loves the outdoors (fishing, hiking, camping, etc.), and does not mind if I call 60 minutes before and say "Hey, let's go out and do something." With this in mind, I want to get to you, the real you. Not the one that is posted on the internet. All of the pain and hardships that life brings, the events that shaped you into who you are. Like many of you, I can tell you of the pain of betrayal of a friend, the people who use and abuse others. I know of of the pain that ensues when you feel dead inside or that empty feeling that weights on your heart, that never seems to be filled.
I have been there and seen it. I have experienced it too. I know what it is like to feel everything so acutely that it hurts. We all have baggage and pasts.To overcome your past, look to the future and open yourself up. Do not be guarded 24/7. It is a hard way to live. So take the time to get to know me. For if you prick me, do I not bleed; if you scorn me, do I not feel shame? We are all human and we all feel that same things, just in different degrees.
I know about how we try to fill the void in our lives by any means necessary. Whether it is with constructive activities, animals, or activities that are not conducive to our health and well being.
In short, we are all paradoxes. We are losers and we are winners, believers and disbelievers, saints and sinners. we are not perfect,but we can still do the best we can. In short, open yourself up, and you may find something that is wonderful. You may find your one and only, but only if you take the time to really get to know the person you are talking to.
All of my life, I have felt like I have worn a mask. Trying be what and who I needed to be at the time. If you passed me on the street, you would not be able to read my emotions. Unless something just happened. Boys are taught that men do not show emotion are discouraged from it. However I still try to.
To be very truthful, there are things that other people have told me that I should not say or do. But now I going to break those chains, I will tell you all the things that kept secret from others. I am going to be a minister in the Christian Church one day. I use humor to deflect a situation that is stress, or just joke too. I love to have fun, whether it is playing a video game or going out dancing.
I am getting a BA in psychology and then master's in counseling, so that one day when I am a minister, I will also be an effective counselor. I love animals. Some more than others and some are better on my plate, like cows and chickens. But that does not mean I am in favor of mistreating those animals, because I am not in favor of that at all.