I like to sleep. I'm bothered by things most people don't think about throughout their entire lives. This does not make me better than anyone. Instead, it makes me anti- social, judgmental, and sometimes rude. It's not because I hate people. It's because I want people to understand what I think. They almost never do. I really want to give people a chance, but in 98% of cases, they just make me lose hope in the human race. If I'm the only person who knows something, it feels like worthless knowledge.
I envy people who live in their own world away from all the horrible problems of human society. Are they avoidant? Yes. Ignorant? Maybe. Happy? Yes. And isn't that the point of life? To be happy?
The things I care about are problems that don't have solutions, or that will never be solved. If I could trade in my thoughts and awareness for simply being content, I would. I wish I knew only what I was told, and never wondered about anything that didn't already have an answer.
I don't believe in god. I don't believe in a point. I don't believe people will ever truly understand themselves. I believe all you can do is just exist. And I wish I could just accept it.
Having said all that, I'm a really laid-back chick. I love going on adventures and trying new things. I love music, more specifically punk, ska, oi, and psychobilly music. I go to shows all the time, pretty much every weekend :)
I work at a hospital as a CNA and a Tele-tech and I'm currently waiting to start nursing school in the spring at Palomar. I love working with and meeting new people and helping people has always been a passion of mine, and I'm probably one of the nicest and most caring person you'll ever meet(even though that seems to end up getting me f***ed over most of the time), and I'm fascinated by the human body and how it works and all the things that can go wrong with it, so nursing is the perfect profession for me.
I love to travel...I've been to Europe(mainly England) many times throughout my life and I'd do anything to go back and see more places.
One last thing. I want someone who's interested in me because I'm an interesting person, not just because they saw my pictures and thought that I was cute. That is what this profile is for. Sadly, however, not many people will actually read this. So to make sure I know who actually put in the effort of reading this, I ask that you just put one little word at the end of your initial message: jellybean. Any message I receive without this ridiculous little word will not get a reply. And to those of you who actually took the time to read all this, thank you :)
Just one other last thing. I'm not looking for a douchebag. So if your default pic(or any of your pics for that matter) consist of your biceps or your '6-pack' do not message me. No one cares that you work out, we really don't. You just look like you're stupid and conceited. That is all.