I'm back. Reluctantly, but I thought I'd give it one more try. Why? Because I know you are out there. Maybe not on POF, but you are out there. I'm certain of it. And this profile is just for you, in case you do happen to be here on Match.
I know because I can feel you in my heart. You are as real as the air I breathe. But like the Harry Connick Jr. song says "I just haven't met you yet."
You feel it, too. You are wandering through this world and your life is good. You aren't missing any things. You might have kids, you might not. You are likely successful in whatever you do. Your life is good.
But something is missing... or someone. That someone is me.
It almost feels embarrassing to write this publicly because for most of you, I am not your someone. Someone else is. And that's fine. I wish you the best.
But I'll know when I see you. I believe I'll see it in your eyes... in your smile... in the way you carry yourself.
I'm a passionate, youthful, intelligent, warm, witty, fun, independent, successful guy who has been through (and worked through) enough of my own garbage to know who I am... and what I want.
I look young. I feel young. And I don't plan on stopping. After more than 2 decades of marriage and more than 5 years on my own since our separation and divorce, I am ready for the real thing.
That real thing is deep, meaningful, significant heart and soul connection. It's being with you because you light up the room every time you walk in.
It's the discussions we have about that which is most important to each of us. Whether it's our faith, current events, family, friends or our hopes, fears and dreams, it all matters... because we matter.
We are partners... soulmates... true friends, through thick and thin.
We share meals out and cook together at home. We champion each others' passions and causes. We enjoy wine (assuming you like the stuff) and we laugh... a lot! It's because I'm silly.. You probably are, too. Otherwise, you wouldn't want to hang out with me.
It's doing things together... things that we both want to do.
I like to stay healthy, but I'm not obessessed about it. I do LOVE to travel and we go all over the world on adventures. Sometimes it's tied into my work... sometimes it's not. Who knows, you may be the one whisking us around the globe through your vocation!
It's looking into your eyes and feeling that no matter where we are, we are at home.
Yes, I am a romantic through and through.
I'd say I've been looking for you, but perhaps I wasn't ready. Perhaps you weren't ready.
Maybe we're still not... and so I trust the process.
I'n not a Prince looking for a Princess any more. I'm a King in search of my Queen.
No more games. We're not in High School any more.
You're likely younger than me. I'm used to not looking my age and I prefer the youthfulness of a woman as well. But you aren't a "girl". You are a woman. You've been through enough of your own stuff to have matured into a confident, self-sufficient person who can feel at home with a confident, secure, nurturing man.
I love being with you and am proud to have you by my side, with your arm in mine as we walk from the car to the theater, or the restaurant, or... anywhere. I love that you are my type physically... I never thought I'd discover my dream woman. But there you are. :-)
We can be honest, vulnerable, authentic. We can tell each other the things we've told no one else. There is no shame, guilt or judgment. Just love and acceptance.
Oh, and did I mention that it's still kind of messy?
Because while I've figured out quite a bit, I've still got a long way to go. You had better also be kind of messy. We're so NOT perfect... but we're perfect together. It's why we need so much grace and forgiveness from each other. And when we are together, we have it in abundance.
If you read this, please write me. I'm waiting.
Full disclosure: The age on my profile is not correct. When I first signed up I was just playing with the settings. Turns out that you can't change your birthday after your account is more than two weeks old. Why not? Beats me. I am 51 years old, but I look and feel better than I did at 40. No one believes I'm fifty. I don't either.
Coffee, frozen yogurt, walk in the park, trip to K-mart (just checking to see if you are paying attention!)