How does one do this without sounding like a used car salesman? My upholstery isn't perfect, I don't have that new car smell, i'm not the most attractive model, not everything is perfect under the hood and i don't think i come with a warranty. I hope that you accept people despite their quirks and shortcomings, their faults and their fears. I am merely a lost human, i have my faults. My quirks will test your patience, without attempting to or realizing it, I may hurt your feelings. I hope you can overlook these things while still encouraging my best. I hope i can do the same for you.
Let's try to give a representation of me...
I think I'm pretty awesome. My small circle of friends think I'm awesome. But the problem is, all of my friends are getting or already are married and I feel like the forgotten about, unnecessary extra wheel. For whatever reason, i have trouble making new friendships. I won't lie, I feel kind of alone. Whether i think i'm awesome or not, i guess it matters if you do, too.
I work as a TA at a special needs school. Mostly angry kids with ADD that did too much drugs. I do in-home behavior modification for children with autism. I am live-in support for a mother with MS and her daughter with autism. I'm really just a glorified grocery shopper and house straightener but they have become like my family. It could be said i have the patience of a saint.
I also have interests and I'm not required to be at the house nearly as often as you'd think. There are plenty of things I enjoy. But as a single person, there are only a couple things that I consistently engage in. I climb at a gym at least two nights a week. My core group of friends and I get together and climb outside or camp most every weekend. I would just love it if you want to climb, too. We're pretty awesome people. Coming home from work and going on a 20 mile bike ride makes me feel good. I think i've seen more of Los Angeles by bike than by car. But being outdoors in general also makes me happy. I am fond of the Midnight Ridazz, Critical Mass, CicLAvia, and Monday Night Rehab(it's a bike ride, i'm not a user). Many nights after work i'll hang out at a park with friends and slack line. If you haven't taken note, i like to be outside. But i also like taking it easy. I like to dabble in cooking and baking--doesn't a chocolate chip, coconut, almond cookie sound delicious? I'm growing a garden of veggies (ends up more like I'm watering plants that should, but don't, have any vegetables to harvest). I like to grill. I like to throw feasts as opposed to parties, where the emphasis is on a delicious homecooked meal and camaraderie and not drunken revelry. I once got excited because a set of pyrex was on sale. I laugh a lot. I think board games are the perfect addition to any house party, especially Cranium or scrabble. Sometimes i dress up like a zombie when it's not even Halloween. I like to dress up, in general. I play words with friends obsessively, but i'd rather play a real game of scrabble or boggle and have a real conversation with you. I like long drives to nowhere with good music and company. maybe you could show me some new things to get in to?
I like to write poetry and ultimately hope to have it all sorted out and self publish my work to the kindle store or something similar -And then i also like to recite it at open mic - http://youtu.be/Tarxn2ctR0E http://youtu.be/f4q2uBvCBec
I like games. I will be the guy bringing a board game to a house party. I really enjoy word games. Scrabble or Words With Friends, anyone?
I know the difference between "they're", "their", and "there"
For two years I had pretty consistent nausea. I haven't quite gotten over the fear of going out and possibly feeling like i'm going to vomit over everything. Doctors have had no answer for me. It's silly, but the idea of feeling nauseous around people terrifies me. It's developed into an odd case of anxiety. Once again, i hope you have patience, too.
I like food.
I don't take life too seriously.
Unlike most men, i don't really lose my shirt over sunday football. I don't particularly enjoy watching or playing sports outside of those already mentioned. Yes, climbing and cycling are sports.
I can also be a homebody. Cooking a nice dinner and watching netflix is pretty divine, too.
I have the tendency to be vulgar, to say really off color things, creepy things, to find the line that shouldn't be crossed and sprint passed it. I am probably offensive if you are the get-offended-easily type. sometimes i write really sweet poetry.
I like a whole lot of music. Sometimes even rap and country. I draw the line at norweigan black metal. My favorite music includes, but is not limited to: radiohead, royksopp, fleet foxes, daft punk, blonde redhead, IAMX, miike snow, feist, the do.
I've been without a significant for quite some time to that point where the loneliness is more comfortable than the fear of meeting someone new. You terrify me. I hope we can work past that.
I'm pretty sure there's a lot of stuff i left out.
I want peace. No more do i want to be the only person in the relationship that gives with all his heart. I want someone to be excited about, who's heart races when they're with me, too. I want to hold hands and steal kisses at red lights. To challenge each other outside of our firmly established comfort zones, but be ready to catch the other person if it's too much. I want someone to go on adventures with, or who can make even the grocery store or the farmers market an adventure. I want to be part of your life, not just something hiding on the side. I want to love and be loved, not for a night or for a week, but ultimately, for a lifetime
I like those dates that just start off as simply as catching a cup of coffee maybe even scrabble included, but then you discover that you're so enthralled with the other person that you keep finding things to do so as not to separate, like an impromptu visit to check out the latest moca exhibits, or a hike to a neat spot that overlooks the valley, or hell, even joining the other person on their mundane errands just so you don't have to wait to see them again. I'm sorry if you were hoping for something like... dinner at delmonico's, then to a bar, maybe a club. Unless it's a comedy club, that's a possibility. I'd like to go climbing with you, even if it's your first time. I have an extra bicycle if you'd like to do that, too. I'm pretty easily satisfied, hopefully you are, too.