Time to change up these pics on here.....Life has been a journey and has thrown me some very strong curve balls but im still here and always come back stronger and better then last throw!..Some say holding on is what makes you strong,But sometimes it takes much more strenght to just let go and move on,I have come to realize that destiny can hurt a person as much as it can bless them, and I find myself wondering why Ok Let me see where do i even begin,First I want to say I was once a big girl 300 pounds at that Im not ashamed to say that at all,So 4yrs ago i had gastric bypass and it was one of the best choices Ive ever made i am now 160 pounds and I couldnt be happier,Having the surgery made me a whole new person in a good way!!I have 3 wonderful kids 2 boys 19&15 and a daughter whos 13,So i have been separated for awhile now (2011)and love it,Dont worry about saying ur sorry it wasnt ur fault things just happen,No im not out looking for the next guy,13 yrs in one marriage is alot to overcome There's no happily ever after, all the knights in shining armor died a long time ago truth is relationships are hard work and love isn't always enough.
So True............."They read you Cinderella
You hoped it would come true
That one day your Prince Charming would come rescue you
You like romantic movies
You never will forget
The way you felt when Romeo kissed Juliet
All this time that you've been waiting
You don't have to wait no more"
Just Some Things I have Learned:
1 of the hardest lessons in life is letting go. Whether it's guilt, anger, love, loss, etc. Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, and you fight to let go,I believe everything happens for a reason,people change so you can learn to let go and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.
I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned the hard way that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, or end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's to happen next!
Love? We think about it, sing about it, dream about it, lose sleep worrying about it. When we don't have it, we search for it; when we discover it, we don't know what to do with it; when we have it, we fear losing it. It is the constant source of pleasure and pain. Be we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next. It is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, impossible to live without.
It's hard to accept,and for me ever since 2011its been hard to accept but you can't change the past. You can't go back and manipulate things to the way you wanted them to happen. Because life'd be meaningless and boring and just not worth living. But you can change the future and that's a beautiful thing about life. Yes, you will make mistakes. And yes, you will have bad days - but as long as you let the past go, you'll have such a gorgeous and bright future ahead of you. Knowing that things were meant to happen,Knowing that each day you will learn something so that you keep growing to be a better person. Life is like a rope, twined in all its complexities and yet weaved into one marvelous stream that you have the chance you use something amazing from. So grab hold of it.
Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we want. Sometimes change is what we really need. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving your life.
"A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. He'll call to say goodnight or just cause he is thinkin of you. He'll look in your eyes and tell you, you're the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it."
I learned that things change, people change, that doesn't mean you forget the past or try to cover it up. It simply means that you move on and treasure the memories...Life can get hard..and things can go wrong...just gotta stand up and stay strong!Let go of the things that can no longer be fixed. Holding on is being brave but sometimes moving on makes you even tougher.
Its been three yrs(10/01/11-10/01/13 since i lost my soulmate when life threw me that curve ball i never thought i would make it thro but i have and im still trying to deal with it and move on,I honestly can say that it hasnt been easy and that i have been very selfish because Id rather have the life I had in 2011 with the man i new was my soulmate then to deal with the pain and loss ive had to deal with recently,Life is never easy and im learning this the hardest way anyone could!!
......Changing my life one day at a time,Every change life has thrown at me has been lessons learned,And all the things that break you make you strong,My past can not be rewritten,So its just lessons learned,There have been some chances I just threw away,Some roads that i never would have taken,I have some wounds that I wish I had one more chance to mend,There has been some bad things I have been through damage that I can not undo but now because of all this it has made me into the strong,confident,outgoing,and more loving women that I am today
P.S.I've also learned the hard way that we are not all promised a tomorrow,So live for today because thats all you have!!
So some jerk on this site is a BIG JERK,Sent me a email telling me to enjoy my new bought fame,Hmmmm little does he know I didnt pay a dime for what i have done,Just so u all know,Yes i had surgery to better myself for my kids,And its hard work,Yes im guilty for cheating with getting the surgery,But let me tell you this,Everyday i work hard to keep my weight off just like everybody else,So i say if u envy me thats ur problem,I love the new me and I didnt do it for you,Ur still a jerk and Karmas a **** this i believe.
Also if ur just out looking for a piece of ass I strongly suggest you Go to another profile cause thats not who i am!
All our lives we search for someone to love, someone to make us complete. We choose partners and change partners. We dance to a song of heartbreak and hope, all the while wondering if somewhere, somehow, someone perfect is searching for us too.
At this age, everything is changing. Day by day we don’t notice, but just look back over the past years and you will realize everything has. People you thought were going to be there forever aren’t, and people you never imagined you’d be speaking to are now some of your closest friends. Life makes little sense, and the more we grow the less sense it will make. So make the most of it now, before it all changes once again, because in the near future, all of this is only going to be memories.Maybe our old wounds teach us something. They remind us where we’ve been and what we’ve overcome. They teach us lessons about what to avoid in the future. That’s what we like to think. But that’s not always the way it is. Sometimes there are things we just have to learn over again