So let's begin.
These words and sentences are expressions of my heart in writing, so let me be mindful here.
The reason I am here is to find the love of my life. To find, to be found by someone sweet who would understand me, appreciate me, want me, need me, accept me, miss me, care for me, love me, and happy being with me for the sensitivity and the clarity I have within me - in exchange of all of my loving , tender care, and affection.
The idea about me which I'd like you to know and hopefully attest through is that I am full of good intentions, even to the ones whom had hurt and disappointed me. And if you would tell me that you are as well then tell me who wouldn't want to be with someone who would do anything but to hurt. Who wouldn't want to be with someone who is safe to be with? And for the way you are, I would never want, to want anything so much more, but spending the rest of my life with you.
Your kind intentions, my dear, would never violate me. It would safe us unnecessary arguments, fights, headaches, disbelief, worry, and heartbreak. And God forbids, but if things do not work out then we would be able to leave it at that, and then move on.
Now, knowing myself and the kind of person I have been for the others, if I were to be somebody else, for what I value within a person I would be happy being with someone like me. So similarly for you, knowing how well you are, if you were a gentleman would you feel happy, safe, and fullfilled being with someone like you? Would your choices and behaviors make his night-sleep rested, his mind at peace?
Moving on, just in case if you are wondering, the answer is yes to your questions if I am the followings: sane, likable, peaceful, sincere, sweeeet, patient, affectionate, giving, helpful, lighthearted, with humility, strong willed, mentally tough, assertive, not shady, not tricky, and mindful in words and actions. Or as coined out by Katy Perry, I am somewhat equivalent to "a hard candy with a surprise center." Owh... look at your face reading that last one..lol
I pay attention to others' feelings, could be empathetic, could be intuitive, easy to get along with, treat anyone with respect, learn to be thankful for what I have, and commited to make you happy - in and out of bedroom, inside and outside of the house. I practice good hygiene, will do chores, clean up after myself, and listen when you speak. I can be sensitive at times, can take criticism, and know when to be serious. I am open and willing to communicate with you. So I am hoping there won't not too many guessing games between you and I. Don't get offended, but it won't be helpful if I am clueless, will it ms Sweet?
And as a bonus, I am sitting down when taking a piss at home, hence the odorless and forever crisp bowl. Goodness, how do you like me now? lol I am Americanly cultured, sweet to the elderly, have the yes ma'am yes sir kind of attitude, open minded and willing to change for the better - at least I will try. Not trying to sound like I am full of myself here, but aren't you glad I mentioned all these. You be the judge.
Ok now that you are still in disbelief, here is me more...lol
I am not pushy, not bossy, always try to be more than fair to anyone, even tempered / very stable, and neither physically nor verbally abusive.
And due to the unjust reaction and negative effects of being angry - on myself and people around me, I am convinced that anger is a grave weakness and a shame. Hence, I dislike being angry, learn to contain and dissipate my anger when provoked, staying away from people/ situations with which potentially give me anger and keep my distance away from people with an anger issue, yuck!
And if anything goes wrong in front of me, I wouldn't just burst to flame ..loool So there would be no grave embarassment on your part. yay! I'll find the facts first and decide who gets the spankings! jk , never spanked anyone in my life,swear! lol
I refrain from saying, "It’s not my problem" or "I don’t care." I am not interested in arguing just for the heck of it. I do not take advantage or mistreat one who is vulnerable, or one whose life depends on me.
I am not this-for-that kind of guy. I learn to give without taking, and will not remind you what favors I have done to get you do things for me. I look forward and live for the opportunity to give a little I have to deserving individuals.
I find peace and feel resolved in letting go things in which outcomes I can’t control. And when wronged not interested in getting even. Still a winner in a losing game, so to speak. If whomever I face with is so bad, then let me just cut my losses and move on. I am convinced that God is fair and all will balance out in the end. So that is one less stress for me, and it should too for everyone.
I always remind myself that patient and perseverance are what measured when facing with hardship. And sometimes it's not like you can just walk out of it, ya know - you had no option not to take it. So might as well just accept it, be patient, put up your best defense, persevere through it, and get rewarded for being just that.
Acceptance is a major character that I would like to assimilate myself with, more and more.
When I am happy, I accept to whatever the condition there is - hence my happiness. So when Allah challenges me with situations which make me feel sad, and if I could get a clear understanding that this is a trial from Allah, that Allah wants to see how I do in such conditions, that this is God's will where there is no room to challenge God's decisions. And to think "why me?," or to say "I don't deserve this nor want this, " will not change anything. Then this will be a life turning experience where - though man's heart is able to feel pain, a sad and dissatisfied man with some understanding, could also opt to get out of his sadness, turn his pain and rejection to ease, acceptance, and happiness. Because there are such things, which are beyond his control, which are Devine controlled decisions - where he is not the master of himself, where he is powerless and had no say in some of his destinies. Where the only options God has given and allowed him be is either to be disgraceful or be dutiful - the very thing human will be judge for, attitude.
Have you noticed, have you ever thought that we have been given a lot more than what we deserve. And yet we rarely acknowledge them and thank The Lord for it. And we only worry and sorrowful for the things we don't have, as if all that we have means nothing if God doesn't give you the very thing you want, like Justin Beiber! lol Come on ladies! This is a serious matter ..lol
And remember, men are made to service one anothers. Some bound to be on top, the others in between, and the rest in bottom in their social life. Neither the ones on top, in the middle, nor in the bottom are favored more than the others in the sight of Allah but ones who are thankful, adhering to His rules, and not turning their back from Allah when life is bitter and forgeting Allah when life is sweet, so to speak.
Examples and discriptions above are to explain myself and my way of thinking, so you know what to expect and know how I would react in such circumstances. And for you to see if I promote easeful solution or otherwise. But again those, the aboves, are just what I assume I would do, God trials will challenge me if I were to live up to my words.
So, only if "I" resonates with what you feel matters in a man, then you would find me very sweet and rewarding to be had.
Though I feel upbeat in the ways that I handle my relationship with other human beings, though I am deep spiritually and a believer so to speak, I am ashamed to admit that concentration and improvement in my salah are my biggest hurdle, still. I desperately need to give my salah a time so I could gradually withdraw from the world before performing one, and stay connected to my prayer until it finish. And try not to miss one too. Darn me!
By now, there should be questions or even answer in your mind if I am the kind of guy you are looking for; Based on my personalities, thought and decisions, looks - that I can't change, income at the moment - that Allah has decides for me, higher education - which I missed/ a dropped out, relation with Allah - which needs lots more improvement, and relation with men - though this I would say I could handle very well; or anything else matters to you.
So weigh me out here ok, read these through and understand my pointers. Then tell me, am I more to love or otherwise? Would I add value to your life? Would we be happy together?
Mind me for TMI... any taker though? Rise your hand ! ..lol