I'm not too big on talking about or trying to explain myself. I'd rather show it through conversation and actions but I guess I'll give it a shot. Also people can have an entirely different perspective of you than you might believe you convey. In spite of that, I'm pretty energetic and like being adventurous. I like trying new things and being filled with excitement. I can be really caring and thoughtful and feel people should be treated with love and respect. Although I do like to tease and joke and be sarcastic but its all in good fun and I also have a romantic side. I feel I'm a pretty generous person. I am a huge believer in karma. I was raised LDS/Mormon but no longer go to church. I feel I have an interesting viewpoint on religion. I am athletic and pretty well coordinated. I can be really competitive but I think that can help to bring out the best in someone as long as its not taken to the extreme. I tend to be goofy and silly sometimes cause I like to have fun and be spontaneous but when I'm serious I'm seriously serious. I can't stand repetition but sometimes find it necessary. I try not to put too much value in materialistic things cause those come and go but the greatest blessing of all is the breath we have. Anything else you'd like to know I guess you're just gonna have to send me a message and ask..
When I think about summarizing who I am, countless thoughts and feelings buzz around in my head. How I used to be, what I've become, where I want to go, which tenets hold value in my life, how I'm perceived by others. All these questions hold significant relevance in describing oneself and yet sometimes, in my case at least, the answers aren't always so easily transferred or relayed accurately and fluently through the use of verbiage. There are just so many layers and endless possibilities to factor in with regards to the confounding world that constitute the meaning of truth in my life. I don't see things in black & white. I see love, pain, hurt, joy, jealousy, confusion, desire, strife, addiction, perseverance, sacrifice, hate, and everything in between on a daily basis and, to be honest, I don't know what to make of it all. I know these innate human emotions constantly affect our behavior and actions as a species so I continually try to be a more understanding and accepting individual in every sense and aspect of the term but the struggle is real. At times, it seems the only thing that makes sense to me is the necessary balance that exists, with which this world operates, and yet its very existence is puzzling. I often used to wonder how much better the world would be without pain and suffering but then realized that without them we wouldn't have or know of joy and happiness so, incidentally, the pain and suffering must persist. As dismal of a concept as that may seem, it's completely logical. So what does it all mean? I don't know. And I don't pretend to know. I just take life one day at a time and strive to learn as much as possible and continue to thirst for knowledge and let the pieces fall into place as they may. I definitely don't fit into any certain type of mold or casting that's easily explained or identifiable. I feel more and more like a free-flowing river, that ultimately has a destination, but whose course and path are not yet set in stone. I find beauty and take comfort in this. It's liberating to not be shackled down or restrained by any pre-conceived notions or imposing limitations.... If you made it this far then thank you for visiting and perusing my psyche for at least a quick trip. Lately, it hasn't been often that I open up and share some of my inner thought processes especially with strangers so if you've found anything on my page interesting or if you have any sort of relevant comment or invaluable insight then I would love to hear from you. It's my personal opinion and feeling that the guy doesn't always have to be the one to message first or initiate the conversation so if you feel so inclined then don't wait or be bashful and send away..
This is just a little ditty I wrote on a whim, somewhat recently, whilst contemplating an "about me":
"It all started with a whisper. An eclectic retribution which could do little else but permeate the very fiber of that which makes one thrive. The dormant notion, waiting silently, begs only for the slightest spectre of attention. After a careful deliberation produces value unsupposed to even the mightiest forms of assimilating, the result begins to form and take root. Armed with a vagrancy unbefitting the noblest implications and a solidarity that could rival even the most grandiose of proportions. It all ends with a whisper."
"I really don't know what I'm going to become from now on. I'm simply along for the ride to see what happens to this body and this brain of mine. I'm startled that I became a writer. I don't think I can control my life or my writing. Every other writer I know feels he is steering himself, and I don't have that feeling. I don't have that sort of control. I'm simply becoming." - Kurt Vonnegut
"I would rather have a mind opened by wonder, than one closed by belief" - Gerry Spence
Books: Ishmael by Daniel Quinn, God's Debris: A Thought Experiment by Scott Adams, A Man Without A Country and Fates Worse Than Death by Kurt Vonnegut, A Discourse on Inequality by Jean-Jacques Rousseau, The Interpretation of Dreams by Sigmund Freud, Beyond Good and Evil by Friedrich Nietzsche, Anarchy Evolution by Greg Graffin.
Shows: South Park, The Office, Workaholics, Californication, The Walking Dead, Weeds, Boardwalk Empire, Dexter, Eastbound and Down, Bored to Death, Chopped, The Cosmos.
Music: Strung Out, In Flames, Pepper, Jack Johnson, Ali Farka Toure, Eminem, Tupac, Unearth, Lagwagon, Face to Face, Soilwork, Dark Tranquillity, Chuck Ragan, Mat Kearney, Alkaline Trio, Bad Religion, Brand New, Dredg, Thrice, H.I.M., Jimmy Eat World, Rise Against, 30 Seconds to Mars, etc.
Food: I absolutely loathe celery.