Wanna Know who I am? Read this: It will save you the trouble of imagining someone else, good or bad.
WHEN we were younger, everything was larger, more impressive,
brighter and in some ways more simple, yet more complex.
There were far more tiny insects and creatures upon the ground
and every smell was strong and memorable.
We were innocently brave, like a kitten or puppy. Though that
sometimes led to pain, for the most part, it caused each day to
be filled with joy.
Those things we saw as complex, did not deter us but made us
search to solve that complexity.... to define things in simple terms.
THEN we grew. Our perspective changed....
Anyone who knows more than "point and shoot" photography,
knows about depth of field, field of view and focus.
When we were young, all of that was unlimited, except for the
limitation of our height. Oh, and how the world changed if someone
picked us up!
Contrasted to most animals, we live a long time. That time tends
to cause us to forget about all those things we saw and felt when
we were young.
It all forms the blurry blob, that is who we "are", though the details
of that have largely been forgotten.
Someone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up.
I had no answer. I could not imagine myself being that. The mere
thought of it seemed stifling. Most adults I saw, seemed to follow
rules that they had imposed upon themselves. They sat in chairs,
both in the house and outside.
They got in cars and drove to stores, to buy things other people made.
They watched other people doing things..... They went to a baseball
game,and watched. Or, they sat in their living room and watched on
They even watched other people fishing or hunting!
They worried about how green their lawn was.
They hid in their houses when a storm came.
They even had rules about what they could say and to who they could
say it to, and, when.
They waged an incessant war against "bugs", Spraying poison,
'till their yard was nearly sterile. No bumblebee or butterfly escaped them.
....Nothing left to make them smile.
NO, I could not abide by that. It seemed unnatural. Definitely not
So, I made an effort to never abandon my perspective, and to never
forget to look at the world from not only my present height, but to
tilt my head to one side and close one eye, lie upon the ground amongst
the green grass and insects, and both remember in my mind as well as
to take photographs
So that the "watchers" might be motivated to do the same.
Some may argue that viewing the world with a wide angle lens, set at
f32, doing instead of watching through a myopic toilet paper tube mandated by someone's "rules",
and walking into a raging storm instead of hiding, may be foolish.
That lying in the street to take a photo or speaking
my mind without twisting my words to fit a "motive" may be cause for
people to avoid me. After all, that's downright crazy, right?
And, tilting ones head to one side may get a bit difficult as age creeps in
...Though what mom once said about doing that too much and you might get
stuck that way may be a valid warning, I continue to do it anyway.
I put part of my heart and soul into all I build.
I write to help others see the beauty, or even sometimes the not beautiful,
so both are contrasted.
I take photographs.... I do not create them. And each, though imperfect,
are an honest effort to impart the feeling that was present at the time.
Complicated? Damned right! Anyone that has done what I have with their lives
and emerges from that unaffected is either brain dead or they are lying to you.
But, I remain honest to it.
Because that's who I am.
If you've read this far, be aware that there may or not be a first date.
If you said you are looking "long term" I am too.... Looking for a long term FRIEND, so regardless of your thoughts,
always refer back to that. IF something develops, then that's fine...but don't begin by looking for marriage.
It's just unnatural to do that.