I'm a computer nerd into SciFi and technology, but I also love the outdoors. I'm generally nice and polite, but I'm also brutally honest and have a weird sarcastic sense of humor, so it kinda evens out. I could spend all day watching a Supernatural marathon, watching movies, playing video games or fishing/hiking/swimming/etc outdoors. I'm pretty no frills. Laid back. Old fashioned. Respectful unless I have a reason not to be and even then I'm generally biting my tongue. I think I'm pretty smart (when it comes to complex/technical stuff) but I barely have a grasp on "common sense" and I'm socially awkward. I'm the type of person that is so nervous talking to someone that I will totally forget to tell you my name even though you just shook my hand and told me yours, or I will say something stupid like "I'm doing alright" even though you didn't ask... I run "off book" each day. I learn as I go and never really pick up on the "normal" stuff. I'm extremely shy, but I can't stand total silence. I will start a conversation I don't know how to finish. I grew up super shy and silent and have forced myself over the years to say what comes to mind or otherwise I would never talk because I would just think about what/who/how/when/why/etc instead of just start a conversation.
I'm looking for someone nice and as quirky as me or at least can look passed that and understand that I am a good person and can be fun, though I seem like a wackadoodle or something. If you had to compare me to someone, I would be similar to Dr. Sheldon Cooper from The Big Bang Theory, though I'm actually not crazy, I just feel like people see me that way. I'm the type of person that worries so much that you think I'm weird that I will actually somehow portray that I'm weird. Same with lying. I am honest to a fault, but if you think I am lying, I will get extremely twitchy or something like that and pretty much look like a liar.
I listen to pretty much any type of music, though my favorites are Dubstep, Hardcore, DnB, tiny bit of rap (I have 2 12" subs in my truck, after all), but also enjoy singing (sometimes badly) to some Rock (Deftones, Staind, etc). I generally don't listen to the radio or watch TV (not live anyways), so I don't know what the hot new song is and get kind of annoyed listening to stuff I don't know and don't enjoy. I listen to stuff off my mp3 player and update it sometimes or try out some new songs on Internet radios to branch out my collection (sometimes only to learn of new songs by an artist/group I already listen to).
I'm not a very competitive person. I don't take defeat very well. I'm the type of person that will bash a controller if I lose, or at least think about it. I'm not a violent person. I'm more logical than anything. If I feel like punching something, I will thinking about the damage it would do to the wall or something and just not do it. lol. I have punched ONE thing in my life and it was a metal cabinet because I knew it wouldn't do anything but dent it a little. Anyways, I don't like to argue or compete. I prefer to be laid back. I will avoid arguments and not play competitive games as they are too stressful to me. I want to have fun, not get upset or put down from defeat. I thoroughly enjoy coop games though. Also, just because I avoid arguments doesn't mean I don't have an opinion and doesn't mean I don't voice them. I'm fine with DISAGREEMENTS. I can talk rationally with someone to fix a problem or inform someone of a problem or learn from what I did wrong, etc.
I don't think I'm super handsome. I have a pretty low self-asteem actually, but I also know I'm not super ugly or some shit. I have a big nose and I'm hairy. I could grow a moustache in junior high. I had mutton chops when I was a senior. If you don't like hair; sorry. I'm not shaving every day. It's the way I was born and it's the way I will die. I would absolutely love it if people were actually sane and didn't cut or shave their hair. If it grows that way, then why the **** do you try to control it each and every day to seem like it's NOT supposed to be that way?
I prefer the person I am to be with to be cute/hot/whatever. I see in a grading system of 1-10 where 10 is a celebrity/unicorn, 9 is just too hot to be in my league, 6-8 is ideal, but I would take a 5. Mind you, that's MY grading, not societies. I would absolutely LOVE to be with a 5-6 that is really cute in their own way, can get away without wearing makeup and at least ATTEMPTS to be in shape/healthy. I'm not a chubby chaser. Not that I'm all like "OMG what a fat ass, she is disgusting". For one, it's definitely not sexy, and it's definitely not healthy. I would want the person to be health and her to want ME to be healthy as well. I wouldn't want to be the guy saying "babe, you have to lose weight", etc. I don't give a **** with other people think, so it's not like I wouldn't want to be seen with said person. I want someone for me and me for someone.
That said, I generally don't think I'm "shallow". I will say that looks is a factor. If I look at you and there is absolutely no attraction (1-4, where 4 is probably OK to someone else but not me), then it won't matter how smart or awesome your personality is. Maybe when I'm 60 and Viagra gets pulled off the market, then it wouldn't matter, but I'm still young and I still need something to work with, ya know? I would even date someone that is physically disfigured if she is healthy and I still find her attractive.
I will actually prefer personality over looks (mind you, there HAS TO BE PHYSICAL ATTRACTION TO BEGIN WITH). I'd take a 5 looks with 8-10 personality any day. No sense having a 10 "trophy wife" that's dumb as a box of rocks. If you are attractive and a cool person, then that's all that matters to me. 5/5 is fine. That adds up to a 10 to me. Anything better than that is just bonus points!
Oh, and uh... I generally want the person I am with to be "smart" (interpret as you like), but not a requirement. I enjoy teaching. Also, I know I don't know everything and I also love to be taught. I'd rather be told I am wrong and shown the right way rather than think I'm smart and say something stupid and never be corrected and continue to be wrong. Albeit, I hate people that correct people just to show they are smarter. That's just ****ing annoying. I will do it to educate someone, not just to be a ****. That's just ****ed up.
I've tried shorter profiles and "to the point", but I will try this "laying it all on the line" way. Maybe it will be worse, but I have been single for like 4 years and it's not going to change without some effort. I'm too shy to talk to someone I am attracted to in person, and I have high morals, so I won't "hit on" someone while at work, and I don't "check out" women I pass by out of respect and certainly don't SAY they are hot or whatever. So, yeah, trying this for now.