What can I say about myself? I'm just this guy, no pretensions about me. I'm very much a loner and have a few SLIGHT issues which doesn't really make me great bf material. I want a relationship, but I don't want to lose myself in one. I can't stand stepford fags. We're not straight people so why should we act like them in order to adapt to a bullsh*t standard that keeps heteros happy? I like to be alone...alot. I'm perfectly happy working on the computer or watching tv by myself and whoever I'm with will have to be ok with that or keep moving. This isn't to say I don't want to spend time with anyone, it's just that I've lived alone for 10 years and so I'm set in a pattern that I'm used to it. I just don't what a bf that is 24/7 up my ass. It would drive us both crazy don't you find?
By the way. I am very "straight" acting. I am not nelly by any means, and some of my fellow homos find that a bit intimidating or so I'm told. I don't feel like i need to swish around to conform to society's idea of what being gay should be like, which is to say a clownish, sexless, non-threatening eunuch who nances about with a lisp and a purse. It's just not happening.
I have several hobbies and interest: IMVU, graphic design, web design, sewing and tailoring, history, literature, music, and many of the finer things in life. I'm also a huge sci-fi fan, star trek, star wars, BSG, Babylon 5, Firefly. I love it all. It's a portrait of a possible future and in some cases a better one.
I'm a bit of an anachronism. I speak differently, act differently, adhere to a set of manners and protocol that are seriously outdated. I carry around a cigarette case and listen to AM programing on a tube radio from 1957. I like old things, things that the world no longer has a use for. It's just the way that I am.
I want a relationship that is give and take. There has to be contribution on both sides, an investment of emotions if you will. Problem is I'm cautious and I can admit that. Some people call me cold, but you know what, don't expect me to get lovey dovey after only 3 "dates." Speaking of dating, I still haven't figured out what dating is exactly other than a hetero mating ritual. I like to go out to eat (chinese!) maybe catch a movie or go to a cigar lounge, smoke, and chit chat. Is that a date?
And now a word on sex. I get sh*t constantly for being overweight and being a "bear." Let me straighten that out for you right now. You have bears...older big burly hairy gay men. That's not me. You have cubs...that's a younger version of a bear. That's not me either. You have otters, that's slender dudes who are hairy. sure as hell isn't me. I'm a wolverine. which means I'm a loner, aggressive, and tend to get a tad bit annoyed with folks, plus body hair. I like sex. I like ****ing, I'm a gay man for crizzy sakes! I don't like to be made to feel inferior because I don't conform to your idea of sexual and physical perfection. If you want a porn star go find one and **** him, other wise accept me for who I am and what I can do.