I admit it's hard seeing so many beautiful/wonderful women mistreated by absolute jerks while I lay in bed alone at night. But I refuse to be jaded. I love deeply.. maybe too deep for some... my heart still aches at thoughts of past loves... women who I cherish even now as they all shaped me in some way into the man I am today. I can honestly say that I always treated them with love and respect... never cheated, and cared about them all. I am in this new place and I am ready for not just a new love but my last love... the one that made all the heartache worth it. As the Beatles wrote: "though I'll never lose affection for people and things that went before, but in my life I love you more."
I am so ready for YOU I could scream. I thought I found you in high school but that was just young innocent love.. I thought you stole my heart in California, but it wasn't meant to be.. I bet my heart and mind I found you in Connecticut. . And for a time when it was over, I lost them both. I wear my heart on my sleeve.. and I throw caution to the wind like no other... which makes it hurt like hell when it doesn't work out... but I keep telling myself.. It only needs to work ONE time. Love isn't meant to be safe. It's meant to make your blood pump, your stomach turn and your eyes water. I want the girl who will make my heart beat fast forever.
I am not like everyone else here... and I just don't mean on PoF lol I am genuine and one of a kind. One weekend we can live like rock stars and the next we can lock ourselves in the apt and watch netflix for hours and hours. Our life together only has to appease two people: you and I. Nothing else matters. I will be there to hold your hand in the hard times, To encourage you when you chase your goals and to kiss you when we live our dreams out together.
Sometimes it makes me sad to think of all the amazing people that walk bye me everyday and would be wonderful additions to my life.. except we never meet bc no one stops and says hello. I think about you and pray that when the time comes that I will find the courage to say hello. So here I am.. on this awful website. Waiting for the right girl to set my heart on fire... stop and say hello.