i just want to meet a man who stimulates me from my head to my toes . i wanna learn about him n enjoy watchin him doing what he does n feel love for him n from him . i wanna be like look at that man [he's a ***hole but he ain't that way with me] he's ****in bad ass & he makes me horny . men say they love sex more then women til they meet a woman who does . i see my kids slowly outgrowing me .. letting the strings a little loose more often (: so i.m thinking i need some friends . course guy friends r the best . i love men, asking questions, pushing buttons, but i been so out of the love at first sight / fall in love for a month stuff, it feels like having a bf is like having another son . & i already have a man [2! that are 19 n almost 18 & are taller than me] that i choose to take care of that likes to tell me what to do . ii would definitely love to find a man i love enuff to choose to take care of/listen to (: but i.m waiting on a guy who chooses to care for me enuff first .. too .. whichever . i want to fall for a older man who's been a dad, who stays present, loves sincerely & unconditionally, it's a real skill it seems nowadays . if u wanna be my friend msg me n be a friend yo . cuz if i ever do get married [4 kids, 1 granbaby & gray hair later] it's gonna be to my best friend . mine . i want 1 for me .
soo my first slow dance ever the boy sung the song in my ear as we danced, by bryan adams . guess .
i read as adults we want relationships that are what we first thought love was when we were kids . what do u think ?
ok i.m a talker . okay texter . messager . idk wat u call it . i.m interested in people . i like to ask your zodiac sign n follow the stardust . i.m not a meeterer upper in person person . not saying i wouldn't buut if i ever did agree to i would probly meet up with u with atleast 1 or 3 friends with me (: & my cuzin, his over 6" tall . he's my real life bfg . haha & he's here spending the night, playing board games with the kids . and the old [young] not just the mom part of me is thinking, i got a sitter, sure would be nice to have someone to go get naked with . who fkn knew that would be so difficult now that i.m older & wiser . aahh the good ol times (: hahaha snort
i do still want some adult distractions tho so i thought i.d pop on here again & see what i see . pen pal style (: i got a couple more years to be just the mom before i can be more just me again anyway . my youngest says i don't need a bf cuz she loves me more than anyone in the whole world could love me . she's probly right . so i mean why can't someone come around n be a cool friend n stick around til then right . who knows what could happen . i.m teaching my duaghter's boys gotta be just friends first, bf's waaaay later, gotta follow my own rules (: i would like to be a spur of the moment, no plann no prepare no think about it for a week first, "take a train ride to nowhere & back" (a guy wrote that on his profile i read, i think i msg'd him & told him that was a goood one) (: so um yea u should msg me if yur lookin for a long term .. friendly .. flirty .. bullshitty .. friend reallationship .. who knows what dreams may come friend . all the good ones i knew left this world too soon . i hope i can find a few more . and all that lovey dovey, put each other first, loyalty til death, grow old together stuff, thats would be nice .
buuut on the other hand i keep thinking if i.m gonna have 1 more baby (i want another son) i better meet someone quick cuz i.m getting oooold . i got my first 3 gray hairs earlier this year . from my son & his pregnant girlfriend ! it's been a lot of years that i've looked forward to christmas . i never gets gifts . this year i.m getting a baby granddaughter !! woot woot gramma time ! SHE'S HERE & SHE'S PERFECT (:
forgot to say i am allergic to cats but i am soooo allergic to dogs . within minutes i start getting itchy & can't breathe good . it sucks cuz i loove dogs . i would LOVE to love on an english bulldog or boxer . but it's 1 of those things there's no getting around . guys with dogs always been off limits to me :(
& i don't know how been tooo chicken to drive . don't ask my why i am i just am . stoner problem i guess(:
well i sure would enjoy meeting a tall, handsome, older, hmm we're attracted to what we're attracted to right .. i like dark features, big soft kissable lips, if u kiss me right i am putty in yur hands . like m&m's . a guy's jawline n i like guys shoes idk why & idk about guys who take lots of pics of themselves . i've only been around teeny boppers that do that . plus cuz i don't take good pics right (: i know . i.m not in the best shape to be running yur hands over but i do looove to run my hands over soft man skin (:
i follow the rule that says i give what i get . also like the one that says, you're are only responsible for what you say not how someone else feels about it . wish i woulda learned that one a looong time ago ..
i've always believed in what goes around comes around & i make my choices by asking myself if i would be able to tell my dad about wat i did (he's my best friend).
aw man that was a looong time ago . i can't even really imagine myself introducing a guy to my son's . or my girls . craazy . peace of mind sure huh (: oh man u better know wat ur getting into if ur thinking of messaging me (: (:
i have a tattoo on my leg that says Happiness, Passion, Love & Peace of Mind .. stilll looking for the passion .
ooh but i don't reply to msgs that just say hi . i probly could lead a conversation but i don't wanna [not that i don't wanna but i been planning ahead, looking out for my kids for years, i look forward to caring about a man that much but i wonder more what it's like to see it feel it again for myself . i m looking for like if we gotta ride the bus & get across town n back u could be like i know what bus what time what transfer lets go . if u were a drug i want a upper a new high a new book to read . i think i should get a job studying [& photgraphing hehehe] men (: i love to know things about people . how u think n why n what n for who .. i'm looking for a mentally stimulating older, sincere, honest, good-hearted guy .. i need someone i can lean on . someone who can talk to me about things other than how his day went . so ya well .. sorry i wrote so much & u got stuck reading it all (: goodnite !! (:
Ummmm .. we could go get tattoo's .
me first (:
[ya, that's still a good idea for a first date . we can plan for it & go dutch of course. or u can treat, tattoo's are expensive (: okay okay we might have to do something else .]