My life experience has made me who I am today and I continue on being that student until the day I die. I appreciate and accept each challenges and changes with an open mind as the world continues to evolve. I'm ready to move right along with it with no real expectations or worries. I grew up with a father, who although has a big heart, always treated women as secondary. Until the passing of my mother, I never really understood her complaints until I had to fully step into her shoes to take care of my dad.
Now, I understand and feel the loneliness that she must've felt. Although, she may have been married to a man who she knew would never leave or cheat on her......her continuous complaints to him (and voiced very loudly) was left on deaf ears. And even worse, he continued doing it knowing how much it hurt and upset her. His attitude was based on his own selfish ways, taking her for granted, and as long as he was having fun......well you know the rest. She would always say "you may have everyone else fooled, but I know exactly who you are...." So she lived in her own bubble because even trying to tell the truth about him to others, noone believed or wanted to hear it. She was treated as the bad one...the complainer. My mom was a very strong, independent woman and did many things on her own. So she definately was not needy in any way.
This is not the kind of life I want or am willing to live. I am looking for a long term partner that really wants to be in my life in every way and vice versa. I want to find that partner who can support, encourage, respect, enjoy, and love each other. Please do not contact me if the only thing you want is sex as that is easy to find any where. I'm looking for someone on a much deeper level and someone who is searching in the same direction. Someone who knows how to communicate...doesn't spend all his time talking or living in a world about himself. I believe the key to great relationship is knowing how to communicate with each other. The man needs to initiate conversation too and not expect the woman to ask all the questions...etc.. I've been feeling that's all I ever do....online....and on these dates...LOL
I enjoy a variety of different music and artist. Late nights, I spend alot of time putting different music together. One of the most enjoyable and time consuming experience thing to do. Time passes so quickly that it easily ends up being 2 or 3 am before I force myself to shut it off and go to bed.
"The best way to avoid having sh*t happen to you is to make sh*t happen!"
My favorite songs right now are John Mayer & Katie Perry...."You Love Who You Love...", Cold Play "Fix You"