In boot camp many years ago, staying conscious on three broken hours of sleep a night and otherwise slogging up and down soft, deep, exhausting dunes all the days with an M4A1 and full packs strapped to our backs, with muffled shouts and grenade explosions from the training grounds reverberating through our helmets in a personal, sweaty and isolating hell-cave surrounding our overwhelmed brains (and it was a harder time than any front line I’d been to since)… out of nowhere one evening they brought an entertainer to the base, perhaps to remind us what humanity once felt like… a young singer more or less our age, with shoulder-length sandy hair, and as she sang we each instinctively raised our rifles to a two-hand overhead position as if crossing a river to a better bank, and our arms swayed to the music whether it be good or mediocre and it was all good for that one hour, and I fell in love for that one hour with the feminine form of a young woman whose face I could barely see on the makeshift stage through a squint from the blackened dirt-mixed granular perspiration now caked for a week to my brow where earlier it stung my eyes in the midday heat, but not then in the cooling night breeze for that one hour... and at that moment it was all the love I needed, and that’s how I am to this day, thankful for whatever measure of happiness, security and inspiration we may offer each other, as fleeting as it may be, grateful and giddy for her goodwill, for she surely didn't need to be there, nor did anyone force me to take this path of duty on which we met. And so it stands that love, passion, compassion, loyalty and taking responsibility for consciously made choices, remain my constant life theme.
Though this essay may be a bit wordy (noting that the good part starts two paragraphs down), it could be worse... considering that my profession at times involves writing volumes. Despite this exercise in grandiloquence, please know that in person I am a good listener, non-judgmental... a basic, solid, low-maintenance quiet guy, a soft-spoken Sam Spade who once served as a front-line diplomatic officer negotiating for peace, sometimes while under hostile fire. A proverbial lumberjack who believes that a man should be a man even when alone in the woods, I'm a regular Joe and humbly prefer to be in the company of casual and easygoing people. I'm emotionally available and enjoy a very positive dynamic with all three of my accepting and supportive kids, though my nest for the moment has sadly emptied. A nurturer by nature and champion of independent thought and action, I encourage all to pursue their dreams and ambitions. I strive to never make empty promises or false declarations, and will say up front that I'm here in search of friendship and romantic involvement, and will always remain open to investing my body, mind, heart and soul in a positive relationship with lifelong potential. (My history confirms my capacity to commit for the long haul, emphasizing that between adults a relationship can only be proved true one day at a time). I am not a player, but do believe that sex as an expression of sincere caring, intimacy and love can definitely be a mentally, emotionally, spiritually and physically healthy experience, one that should be revisited regularly. Though neither needy nor clingy, I eagerly offer to serve as a steadfast, faithful and honest keeper of your trust who strongly believes in open communication. On the other hand, being neither possessive or controlling, I will never try to dictate what's right or wrong for you. So, with that now out of the way, here's the rest...
Still 21 after all these years...Ever young, playful and adventuresome, I thrive on passion, compassion, empathy and paradox... always willing to be a solid and loyal friend through both smooth sailing or rough waters, a do-gooder and wanna-be poet. Usually laid back, sometimes intense, naturally self-assured, I am attentive, easy and comfortable, kind of heart, stable, reliable and a calming influence (the kind of person you want around in an emergency), never overbearing or judgmental. That being said, on to the important stuff...
There's no telling how things may develop between a man and a woman... open communication, common interests and physical attraction may just chemically interact to spark friendship and a romantic relationship. If so, on the intimate side, I love to love and be loved, to gently touch and be touched. Your satisfaction and happiness will matter to me more than my own, as it should be. I remain vital and energetic, open-minded and patient, caressing and considerate, respectful, confident, yet humble in your presence. Hardly submissive, I nonetheless take instruction well. Lovemaking is as much about what happens before and after. "O lente lente currite noctis equi." Run slowly, you horses of the night, for magic draws power between dusk and dawn. I will do my best to take your breath away, and you take mine. As for sex, I'll admit to being more of a marathon runner rather than a sprinter, though both can be good for the sake of variety. Having enough free time to savor and enjoy life's pleasures should be important to us both, and coming away exhilarated and exhausted from an occasional long lost weekend, in my opinion, can be an excellent adventure. So... if you have a questionable sex drive or need 10 hours of solid sleep every single night, then I may not be the best prospect for you.
Once upon a time it seemed admirable to be an intellectual; today I'm trying not to be too sensible.
Having started adult life as a journalist, playwright and counselor for runaway youths (...not afraid of a little drama, especially considering my penchant for writing plays), I later served as a diplomatic officer and gentleman on foreign lands during war, and after the army abandoned my muse for a "real" job in aerospace.
Currently I dedicate much of my personal time to keeping that creative spark alive, sometimes even to a little bit of mischief (like making crazy love all night long)... and still writing prose and plays, and doing mixed media (photography-based) fine art. Wanna collaborate? You'll get full billing as my muse... or I can be yours.
Being equally at ease with good conversation as with trusting silence, it may also be important to note, as one who believes that laughter cures most ills, that I will do my best to give you cause to chuckle at least a few times a day, and to guffaw out loud at least once or twice during that same period.
Of all things I am happiest parenting and being the best dad possible.
With all due respect for noble intentions, ya gotta have fun in life. No matter our direction we can only get there one day at a time. As forever might end tomorrow, it seems good advice to do everything possible to enjoy today. Carpe Diem.