I'm going to be working on updating my profile, so bear with this Lioness, will you please? thank you! My last profile spoke of a possible move to Santa Barbara CA, which i have not after all made. That is okay; There's a reason i'm still here. And I am not dating at this time due to some confusion . (i have not intact dated anyone here, just enjoyed a few emails.. (i'm only interested in friends right now..
I remain excited about new adventures ahead and look forward to my next move. Being slightly uncomfortable with where I'm now residing (i feel it to be very temporary!) is only causing me to anticipate good things! (tired of looking at houses; starting to look for a home! (home is where your heart parks.. Its not necessarily a million dollar mansion. (home is where I am free to love you wildely and freely; It is where you can be you and i can be me truly. Home is where you are! (i'm not tired of living alone any more. I am full of energy and anticipation toward finding you! I enjoy "Being" more than "Doing" (although there are many things i love to do!)
I look forward to your honesty and grace. (i don't use a lot of sarcasm. Not saying i don't think its cute sometimes. Just that I say what i mean and don't expect you to read my mind.) i am not a manipulative person. I enjoy being genuine and easily recognize the same. I am someone who respects you, but i also enjoy playful abandon! I enjoy balancing myself: I am trustworthy yet full of surprises! I am empathetic, loving, relational, open, honest and love enough to tell you how i feel . (i'm not the kind who thinks you should know what i want.) I'm not afraid to ask for what i want. I love giving and sometimes hope to know what it is one needs without one having to ask, but neither of us are manipulative or need to beat around the bush! (This i admit, i have fairly good self esteem, respect myself and enjoy respect and love. I can't have it any other way!)
Also, simple is often best for me. I enjoy sparkle and will sparkle for you. But i need to feel safe. Safe to enjoy loving you purely and sheerly with great power and force! Secret Love only frustrates! (i'm referring to boys who secretly fear the most beautiful emotion. (not just physical intimacy, which has its place in a relationship once a genuine repertoire has been established.)
Yes, there are truly ironies and though it comes from a simple honest soul, love can be confusing; human needs and desires are fractional of Love's equation. (Though they are not denied)
My goals are still being made, most involve meeting you, becoming your partner and sharing your dreams..It may sound idealistic but i believe that
there is such thing as "a soul mate" or "the perfect partner" Especially if we both realize that there is no such thing as a perfect woman, a perfect man, a perfect parent, child or friend. We are all in this together and loving someone involves much acceptance, much forgiveness, much grace!
Also, sharing life's experiences means being there to laugh and cry with you, to love and adore & to love your child or children as my own
Love and Respect are keys that seem to unlock the art of loving at its best. My goal is to inspire you, warm your heart with laughter and keep you warm all winter. ( of course I will enjoy your warmth, your kindness and trust in your good intentions. i will trust that you will not be quick to anger
and that you will love me when i am in sight or out of sight as I will do, not just for you but for my own peace of mind and heart and for
"the us" Our relationship is not "Just for me" I desire for our relationship to reach out and bless our friends, children, parents, sisters and brothers
but not by giving so much that we give up the "us" I think we will take deliberate time for our life long love affair..(make time for each other)
We will find our parts so over flowing with each others love and of divine light that those around will bask in that light, for it is not only our own but like the moon reflects the sun, we will reflect the brilliance of God ...
Still we are human and the dark days will come...We will do our best to light candles and love each other, for a real friend, knows all of your weak points or so called faults and loves you anyway. A real friend comes carefully when to confront, speaking the truth in love, not slandering behind your back, for betrayal diminishes the fires of love. Behind your back, you are loved, to your face you are spoken of...RESPECT and Requests..for
higher love when when our moonlight is waning. (in other words, if I want to confront you or apologize, it is done with you, , not behind you or against you, And holding grudges I refuse to do.. against you or myself. I can not cower to the darkness for our love is flaming higher!
What makes me unique is my honesty and loyalty.I love stimulating conversation with substance and intelligence (but more vital is the language of love... I need gentleness; i am gentle, I am sensitive, I need to touch and be touched; You are the apple of my eye; I prefer you! (of course children are part of you; (but we're not codependent.. we're not carrying our family in our pockets; instead we are carrying our love for them in our hearts!
I enjoy genuine people, conversations with substance (it makes small talk ok if theres also genuine depth) :)
i am looking for a meaningful friendship that will grow into a long term arrangement!
I am loving, kind, honest, sometimes quiet :) and I am not afraid of intimacy!!
I have come to believe that respect, unlike trust, does not need to be earned. I have come to believe that perfection is not love and listening well is all about understanding; Loving is many things, shown in many ways, often different ways by different gender.. But two things that seem prerequisite to preserve love; is honesty and forgiveness. thank you for reading my profile!