I lost my mom over breast and bone cancer three years ago. I was completely lost in that time I simply could not accept she had to go through all of that. When I came to my country to be with her my heart was broken seeing her in such a pain and devastated me as nurse who helped so many people that I could not help much my own mother. What definitely broke my heart was seeing my dad kneeling near her bed and looking at her. He told me as soon as I came there " I did not know I love her that much until she got sick". They spent almost 50 years in marriage. I am not looking for dad I am very independent person but I would like to meet someone who will love me like he loved my mom.
I don’t like this part at all. What to write? My English is not perfect I am less than 11 years in USA so I will probably make lot of grammatical mistakes but who cares? I speak my primary language very grammatically. I was asked on here several times what I am looking for. I will tell you what I am looking for. Very simple I am looking for love. Don’t we all look for that? I will explain you what kind of love..I am nurse and I am in this job more than 20 years. First 5 years I was working in the hospital and I liked it. One day I saw they were looking for nurse in the nursing home and I decided to try there. That completely changed my life. I met lot of nice people there very interesting people heard lot of stories about their life. I never heard that someone regret because they didn’t earn more money or because they didn’t travel on some place but heard lot of times that they regret they didn’t go after love. That was actually assisting living and nursing home together and there were lot of couples there. Some of them stayed together because of children or material reason or some other reason but love was not one of them for surly. I saw that couples looked forward that other one die that they can be free finally. ( Sad but true I saw lot of couples in my country and here in America who were like that) I promised myself I would not be one of them and went home and spoke with my husband in that time and we decided to divorce. That was the best thing we did. I met couples with or without children who loved each other till death and I want something like that. I remember when my grandfather was dying my grandma was trying to do everything for him to make him happy. She was in hurry to make food he liked but my grandpa told her” forget about food sit near me I didn’t spend enough time with you I didn’t watch you enough. You are so beautiful.” I was there and I heard what he was saying. I was very close to my grandpa and he told me many times that life was not always easy for them but they loved each other so made it somehow easier.
I had couple in one nursing home in Providence gentleman was on physical therapy because he had trouble with walking. One day they were selling flowers in the hall and he took walker and walk with therapist down to buy his wife flowers. When he brought flowers to her he said “ This is for you sweetheart flowers for flower “ That put tears of joy in his wife’s eyes she told him “ You was always nice with me”. Don’t we all want something like that real Italian gentleman?
Lot of men on here wrote they are great fathers. I met some of them and unfortunately mostly of that great dads were counting how long they have to pay child support. You can guess I never saw them again..I never took any cent for child support from my ex husband. I would like to hear from your children how great father you are. You have to ask my daughter what kind of mother I am. I am probably not perfect but I hope I am not bad one. I did my best and I am still trying and I can proudly say one thing my ex husband and me even we were divorced and had lot of differences we did a good job. Our daughter is beautiful smart girl with big heart for people and their feelings.
Don’t let my pictures fool you. It is not all in look like more important is what kind of person I am. I am very honest and I speak my mind someone like that someone not but that’s me.
I met some guy who told me “ Shall I meet someone who will take care of me” I answered with same “ Shall I meet someone who will take care of me” but seems that guy didn’t get message right. It is not about shall we meet someone who will take care of us. It is about to meet someone who will take care of you and whom you will take care of. Relationship is about getting and giving not just getting. I wish all of you find love. Sometimes love is near us but we just don’t see that. When you kiss someone you know right away he or she is that one.
I will tell you one thing. I am gonna find that guy.
Please read my profile carefully before you contact me. If you will have chance to meet me or talk to me by phone you will see I am very calm, funny and friendly person but please do not waste my time as I will never waste yours. Please do not try to kiss me, touch me or be all over me on first date. I HATE that and will not give you chance for second date. I need a time to adjust on someone. That does not mean I am cold or not interested.
Please be honest , tall and educated with manners and please no religious fanatics.I really do not care how much money you earn, I can support myself pretty well but education is very important to me . So if you have less than Bachelors degree we are not match , no offense.
I tried to answer on every mail and politely say when I am not interested but due to lot of men on here who can not manly handle NO I decided to not answer on mails I am not interested. I apologize to all men with good manners on here for my rudeness but that is much easier way than to put myself in endless discussion and waste of time.
People with inability to communicate please move to another profile we are definitely not for each other. Communication and honesty are the most important part of any kind of relationship so if you are not able to communicate that means you are incapable of any relationship and please do not waste my time. Same for closed minded and judgmental people please stay away from me. Immature men in 40s and 50s is turn off completely. Same as men in baseball caps, liars who lie about age( and whatever else) and men who walk in front of woman so you look in their back. I really don't need anything like that. That is so rude. I need man who will walk side by side with me.Tattoos are completely turn off for me one or two small discrete tattoo are ok but "written" all over the body I don't think we should be match at all. Please no married men!!
I do look for man who is tall , fit but not lumber jacks looks. I like smart and educated.