July 20 2015
Grandfather Bear, for me its been a long road in becoming a father and then a grandfather to my family. I have 4 grandchildren and have been caring for them since they were babies.
Over 25 years ago my marriage broke down and eventually I became a single dad. Struggles? I've seen it all, just three years ago I went through 6 months of aggressive chemotherapy and a two year maintenance treatment. At that same time I lost my house and favored truck.
Comebacks? I guess are a part of my life. In my teens doctors told me I would never be an athlete because I was diagnosed with anklosing spondlitis. By the age of 30 I took to the pavement and became a long distance runner.
I even over came my addictions from drugs and alcohol and have been here facing life clean for over 25 years. I did return also to my roots and found being an Indian isn't so bad. When people hear my language they say in soft words that it nice to hear us speak.
I was born on my traditional Territories and have hunting and trapping skills. As a former party animal I can still bust a few moves on the dance floor. I even took training in counseling working with families and youth. But always had a calling of the wild to be with nature.
My dad even taught us to be fishermen on a hill better on the Skeena. Jarring and smoking fish as well as wild game. Living in the city is different but at the moment I am helping with my grandkids.
They say near death experiences changes people. I say it has changed me considerably, used to be clean cut hair cut everytime my hair grew too long. Clean shaven. Death? While I was fighting for my life, healthy people passed before me which made me feel guilty for surviving.
As a man I do feel as an alien never to find a place.