One of my best friends tells me I'm the most cynical optimist she's ever met. I see the world for what it is and make the best of it.
I believe a smile is contagious. I believe that love isn't something you have it's something you do. I believe I can create the kind of world I want to live in by starting with myself. I strive to learn and grow, to be a better person today than I was yesterday. I believe in the Butterfly Effect.
I also believe that there are people out there who only want what's best for themselves and to hell with the rest of us. I just wish it wasn't true.
I believe there's a fresh start waiting around the corner. I believe one kind act spreads to others creating more kind acts. I believe that freedom is responsibility and consequence that is acceptable. I believe hope lightens the heart, and knowledge opens the mind.
I believe in God (The Great Spirit, ect) but I don't believe in religion. I believe that you don't have to be in a church to worship God, although I think most people leave Him behind when they exit the church.
I was diagnosed with Lupus in 2002 and it's controled my life ever since. And appearently most people don't know what life-threatening means, if you don't look it up in the dictionary. People die from lupus all the time. Oh and by the way Lupus is not contagious! It's hereditary like cancer. If you want to learn more visit www.lupus.org.
Someone once asked me "if I had three wishes what would they be?" I said well I know what I wouldn't wish for. I wouldn’t wish that I didn’t have lupus. Don’t get me wrong, Lupus has ravaged my body and left my dreams in tatters. I’m in pain from the moment I wake in the morning to the moment I go to sleep at night. Having lupus has taught me so much. I’ve grown so much spiritually and I wouldn’t trade that knowledge for anything in the world, including my health.
One morning I woke up to sunlight coming through the window. I reveled in it’s beauty and warmth. I wondered if I would have noticed it at all before all of this. I’ve learned to really just enjoy being alive. I’ve learned to cherish the good moments when I‘m in them and to let go and not dwell in the bad. I don’t take things for granted anymore. A major hurtle I’ve recently crossed is to not stress out over things, especially things I can’t change or fix at the time.
I’ve always known that I have a purpose, that my life has a purpose. I believe that purpose is to mingle with the world and learn everything I can and to share what I’ve learned. I believe having Lupus is just a part of that purpose. There are times when I get depressed. There are times that I scream “It’s Not Fair!” but it only makes me stronger.
I believe that God gives each of us path, but we have a choice and each must decide whether they want to walk it or not. I realize now that I’m accomplishing my biggest dreams for myself. I’m happy with how my life is turning out, even though this isn’t where I thought I’d be.
I love animals. I have 7 cats, and a dog. The cats and dog I adopted from the shelter. I hate that people absue animals. And if they are going to absue an animal its only a short time before they start abusing their children.
I'm working on getting back to college. I had to go on medical leave due to having Lupus. I was majoring in archaeology and anthropology with a concentration in cultural anthropology. I really enjoy learning about culture and the way society works.
I'm an environmental and Lupus activist. I run an environmental activisim group on MSN Groups. http://groups.msn.com/GottaKnockALittleHarder