I was born just south of nowhere and just north of the last place you'd ever want to be. My mother is a nurse and my father a police officer. My grandmother was a former nun and a huge influence on my formative years- she wanted me to become a Nun so badly. Lucky for me I discovered rock &roll early. At five years old I purchased a vinyl copy of David Bowie's Ziggy Stardust- and life as I knew it was never the same. My life has been as surreal and unusal as a work by Dali. Breathlessly, drunkenly, and beautifully flawed. But it's never been boring! I'm a little bit like a wild angel - I'm deeply sensitive, caring, and faithful but I'm also very guarded until I feel like it's safe to really let my hair down and shine.
If you wanted to know a little more about me I would definately tell you I am outgoing on the outside but secretly shy on the inside - my true nature is to bond with one person on a meaningful level but I can definately handle myself in a group. I'm the girl at the party that has all the great life stories but would be happy to leave early to kick off her couture heels,stretch out on the couch,and watch a movie with you for the rest of the night. When I come to really care for you I am likely to become your biggest supporter. I'm a total romantic and girly-girl, I really am just another Juliette looking for her unlikely Romeo but I am told that I come across as that bad-a$$ chick who always wears those tight leather pants and blows up the bad guys in the sci-fi films (o.k. I DO have a pair of leather pants, but I'd probably wear a rose in my hair at the same time, tough girls need cuddles too!). I'm intensely creative, very passionate, and can be a bit too logical sometimes. Oh and kissing, I have found I LOVE kissing, the very first kiss I was ever given made me believe in magic again, good kissers please apply here!
I just moved from Manhattan to Astoria, I kind of followed my heart out of Harlem and into Queens - now how cool is that!?! I have developed this habit of chasing my heart's desires, it has lead to some really positive adventures in the last few years.
Now to be fair, I'll confess, I am far from perfect (gasp!). I am easy to be with but can be hard to get close to, I think I spend too much money on cosmetics, couture, and gifts for the people I love, I am very much the kind of girl who puts her safety first which can make me seem like a drag for those who are fearless, I am likely to want to e-mail you until I am comfortable calling or meeting and I know that can be annoying to some people. I am super comfortable talking about sexual issues and subjects some people might find shocking due to my previous line of work, I'm the kind of girl whose instinct is to make smart-alec comments at movies (think MST3k)which can make some people insane, another habit I picked up from my previous work experience is the occasional use of slang (on one hand I am well spoken, educated, and about the whitest white girl on the planet and on the other hand I just used the term "cracker")and this loose use of slang can be offensive to some people. I definitely have a bit of a dark-side, and I tend to move slow when forming new social relationships and will shut down if I feel pushed or pressured.
So I can be a bit of a challenge!
As far as what I tend to be drawn to in men,consistently I have found myself having the best relationships with caucasian men who are creative. If gay men hit on you and your really straight,your probably just my type phyically speaking, but I can be varied as to what I find attractive in men's physical apperance. A (sarcastic) sense of humor is a must have for all of my relationships male and female.The few close relationships I have are with those who value loyalty,respect,and unconditional postive regard-in that they expect it AND they give it.
I really believe in happily ever after even though I know there are alot of bumps along that road. Just make sure the saddle is tight and then hold on - I'm all about working through the challenges along the way. In the end what I am hoping to find is a best friend who can be a lover - someone who wants to ride off into the sunset and take this wild angel with him - not because he's sure I'm "the one" he wants to be with but because he IS sure I'm the one girl he knows he doesn't ever want to be without.
On a first date I'm thinking we should just meet and just hang out somewhere quiet, perhaps enjoy a meal together or maybe just a few glasses of (insert your refreshing alcoholic/ non alcoholic beverage here)! We can browse a book store together or walk through a museum and talk. It's important for me that neither of us comes on too strong - just show me who you really are and we can save the the grand gestures for a second date! Trust me, if I'm meeting you for a date you have already impressed me, so let's just have a good time : )