Im currently unemployed and nearly broke. Finally waking up from a life sapping addiction to self torture and pining for the wrong one. Also im fatter and uglier in person and my hair is longer.
Im cooped up, bored to bits, insane from prolonged loneliness and dreaming of anywhere but here.
I need an adventure. Im tired of talking to myself. Im sick of wasting away alone. I want to get away. I want to go. Im paralyzed by the same old lonesomeness and fear thereof that keeps me from everything.
Wanna go? Just pickup and go?. Wherever. No money, no plans. No judgement. Self or otherwise.
I wanna go. I need a change.
I am brave and smart and capable and resourceful and handy and i can be counted on. As long as someone is watching. Only if someones watching. If a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to see or hear it.... When im alone i have no ambition, no desire. No hope. Im a scared weak little man with nobody who cares so i pretend i don't care either. Im that pouty kid who is upset no one is watching.
Appealing case i make eh?
Im mobile. 30ft camper trailer, 2013 truck. No anchors. Just need a direction to go.