Ideally I am looking for something long-term but that's only going to happen if we chill...
I'm in no rush...and just so you know... wanting to kickit, actually enjoying your company and seeing you first and foremost as a Friend, is a good thing!!..
I have spent my entire life as "one of the guys" with reason...but ill be damned if as soon as I get a "title".. all of the sudden I'm a f*n leper...? Uhhh?...Why?
I'd rather be your friend.
Be yourself, always.If you can't be yourself, and we can't be friends... Well then what's the point?
You, in all your glory.. and shame...THAT is who I want to know...Trust me, I have an equal or greater "cross to bare" ... guaranteed.
I have seen, touched, tasted...smoked, snorted... EXPERIENCED Heaven & Hell and little surprises me anymore... That's what we are here for though.... Right? To explore, push boundaries, push ourselves, push others.... get knocked on our a$$ and get back up & try it from another angle... till everything fit's like it should... till we are done playing a "role" for everyone else and we want others to KNOW us for ourselves... and STILL want to hang out... beyond that... They see our true value... past the "quirks"... and the quirks just make shi*... interesting.....
Well, that's who I'm looking for...
I work hard but need to learn to work smart instead.(just finished my first quarter of college, yeah... I lag.
I want to be around motivated people.. I am looking for someone to push me to do better for myself...I offer the same.
if your not interested in me and have no interest in my life... I don't see it working (i can tell if your only intrest is sex, im not stupid)(unless... well, we can't stand each other but the sex is awesome.. lol... you think i'm kidding huh?.... )... and if you are "discreet" (what ever the fu$&* that means..really please.) i don’t see it working... meaning, if you are not willing to include me in your life...if you don't want to talk about what you do, what going on with you... concerns and passions... introduce me to people in your life (as it comes..not forced)... answer my questions, well than i won't really know you and there is not much point in that...i don't want to be or have a F*** buddy... but i like to F*** and want someone who that works with to... I know how to get both... sooo... don't question my motive... Trust me you will NEVER meet anyone as "frank" as I am... Actually, that is my biggest "fault"...I lack that "edit" button that seemingly everyone else on the planet was born with... (don't get me wrong, I know how to act.)Look, I want someone I can talk with... and obviously, be able to make an ASS of myself in front of... and STILL... NOT have it held against me... .
Don't you f'n judge me... ;)
You will never... i repeat NEVER meet anyone like me... and, depending upon the type of person you are... nope, no matter WHAT type of person you are (trust me I have seen it ALLLLL.......sigh..) You will be better off having known me... EVEN if you can't stand me ;)
There are things that I am trying to change in my life as well and ideally what I am looking for is someone that can relate and maybe need that same type of support, motivation and offer an alternate view.
The goal is balance.. equality. I want to give as much as I take, up until recently I have always been the giver and it is very hard for me to take... but that is unacceptable any longer.
I have stupid chick thoughts that I should not vocalize but I ALWAYS do..... Most find them amusing... some take them personally... Yeah, I have to work hard at that and get that voice to STFU... seriously... i get most of the sh*t worked out in my head and if I could express in text just how much I DO that.. and maybe if there is someone who is offended by NOTHING...that would be sooooo perfect.. cuz if i could just voice the stupid chick crap and you would realize that it's not about you ...then I would be able to get over it... cuz if i REALLY thought the crazy sh*t that comes out of my mouth.. I would not be involved with you...Dang, i may be sounding a bit psycho now.. but trust me..im no threat... only a danger to myself.. :) and i will hurt myself.. hey but that's how you learn what not to do right? Amazingly, ive got LOVE for every single man i have ever come to know if nothing more than that...it is more than enough..they have all taught me something...and that holds a a huge value to me. (this type or rant is about as "out there as I get... So I am leaving it UP" ;))
I do not need permanence.. I need to trust that one day I will trust you.
Actions speak so much louder than words, and I pay very close attention.