Hello, my name is Cal. Everytime i write something like this, i look back the next day and think to myself "i make myself sound stupid", so if you decide to actually read this and i sound stupid, please know i am not i just do not know how to properlly express myself in words. I find it hard to try and sum myself up without wrtiteing a novel, usually i'd try and put the best things about me, becaause if i was actually honest no one would want to meet me. But "if you can't handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best", so for once ill be honest and describe myself as i see me. I am the biggest hypocrit of life. I must be my own worst person, because things i see others doing which i dislike, i seem to do myself. I seem to find a constant need to pick out flaws in others, and ignore the
ones which i have in myself. I am very self concious, but that does not prevent me from haveing feelings for others. I think i deserve love, as does every human being.
We were put on this earth for alot of reasons, most of which i do not know, but one i think is to find someone who we love, and who will love us back. I am a really random person, who never feels akward when talking to someone for the first time, because if ever there is an akward silence i will start rambolling on about useless facts i learned from god knows were, or i will start going off about how strange it is that you cannot smoke 9 meters infront of the Eatons center because some people dont want to have second hand smoke, yet every factory can spew out smoke which in the end harms us all. So basiclly you will never be bored around me, because plain and simple i like to talk. I like piercings on myself and others, but i will most likelly grow out of that as i age. I love fashion, and i'd like to say i express myself with what i wear, but really i just follow the trends. I hate reading, but when i am forced into reading a book, i greatlly enjoy it. To be honest, i get too horny sometimes. And when someone asks me too "come hookup", i want too.But i have not had sex for over a year and i want to keep it that way, i need to wait for the right person. So if your going to message me to "hookup" then please dont. I want someone who i can feel safe and secure with, someone who we can cuddle for hours watching a horrible movie and not care because we have each otbher. I may not be the most mature person ever, but i desire to mature myself as i approach audulthood. I want a boy who i can share my dreams with, someone who i can go to a fancy dinner with, or just catch a movie. Someone who will love me for who i am, and someone who will love my flaws. Because if we did not have flaws we would all be the same, flaws are what makes us individuals. Now looking back at what i have just wrote, i allready feel like an idiot for the things ive said. I'd like to keep on writieing but i highlly doubt anyone will even read this far, so i'll stop.
I honestlly am really nervous on every one of them that i have ever been on. So for me an ideal one is one in which i feel comfortable with the person i am with and i enjoy myself. I dont care what we do, just as long as we can talk and get to know each other.