Ok I havent updated this in years. Im in recovery right now. So that one question we are all asked about whether we do drugs or not.... I dont need to lie there anymore. By not lying I realize that I am dramatically reducing my chances of finding someone but its all good because everyone lies on that question anyway which always had me wondering why they even ask it in the first place. I think it would make more sense to just ask straight out what drug gets you out of bed in the morning? Or What drug do you prefer to spend your whole paycheck on?
So now that Im clean, everyday gets better and as my mind gets clearer. The choices I make are wiser, the dreams I have of my future are more realistic and the decisions I make are responsible.
I would love to find someone that just clicks perfectly with me. Someone that fits perfectly when holding each other in bed. Someone that understands me or at least wants to try.. I wont sit here and tell you I've never lied to a girlfriend but i will tell you that if i ever did I always ended up telling her about it after all the dust had settled. I avoid situations that would ever require me to lie to her in the first place. And yes this includes cheating. How could it ever get to the point were that would happen? Find the right person that is compatible in bed, fits your personality and communicates well with you and there should never be any need to seek outside resources. In our hearts we know right away if this person is the one but for all kinds different reasons we try to keep going something that was never there..
Im just rambling on now.