"I hate war. In all its forms.... physical, phychological, spiritual, emotional, environmental. I hate war... and I hate having to struggle. I wish I had been born into a world where it was unnecessary. This context of struggle and being a warrior and being a struggler has been forced on me by oppression. Otherwise, I would be a sculptor, a gardener, a carpenter... I would be free to be so much more. I guess part of me, part of who I am and part of what I do is being a warrior... a reluctant warrior, a reluctant struggler.. but I do it because I am commited to life. We can't avoid it, we can't run away from it because to do that is to be cowardice. To do that is to be subservient to devils, subservient to evil. So the only way for me to live on this planet with any human dignity at the momment is to struggle."
This is how I used I used to feel growing up. I had trouble just sitting back, living a life I was told to live by most people around me, and contributing to the suffering I saw all around me. So I decided one day after school to find a career which I could enjoy but at the same time contribute to positive change in the world. So right now, I am living a simple, happy , creative life which satisfies me completely. This is where I'm at, and for the first time, feeling 'settled'.